Me + Baby @ Esplanade, Singapore

P.S. A BIG thanks to Lee! =)

Time for Holidays...

Exams were long over, and I must say, I suck at it! With the possibility of re-sitting one of my papers, I'm hovering between a finalist and a graduate. Which means it all must wait till 21st of February, 2011 before anything is certain.

So with that over, job searching comes next. 

I've decided to overlook the options of going back to my aunt's office to work part-time till I found a job, at least for the time being till my savings can last me till I found my new job. 

And this is where Big Four comes in. The decision is, I've sent out to all four. So will I get at least one of them? Well, time will tell. And I must admit I probably screw up in some part of my CV, not having prepared one before, so there it goes, definitely not 100% satisfactory. I have no idea what to expect, how thing's gonna be, but one thing is certain, it's holidayssss!

Christmas coming, and Singapore, here I come! Let's leave things to how they're first, might as well enjoy the holiday of what will be my last one before my working life officially kickstart. Enjoy, enjoy, and then come New Year, hell knows where I'll end up in, and how my results will be...

Have a Merry X'mas and a Happy New Year, peeps! =)

Marginal Paper...

It's probably just gonna be another marginal paper...
2 more to go...
2 more...

Final Three...

The Final Three---Here I go!
All the best guys and gals! =)

Total Wreckage...

It's past 2 a.m. but I'm in no mood to sleep...
What becomes of the good day that ends up in ruins?
It's a total wreckage,
and I have no idea how things will be tomorrow,
no idea what should I do to turn it around,
clearly no idea why I'm so pathetic.
If not for me, if not for me,
things wouldn't have been like this.
Why oh why?
Why am I so?
What's the best way to get it right I wonder...

On a Rainy Night...

On a rainy night, up storm a bullet of thoughts in my mind..

It's like, 'OMG! It's just about ONE WEEK left! WTH have I been doing?'
And really, what have I been doing? Really OMG. Time really flies~

It's like, 'I wonder how much a person in love will fork out...'
Everything truly sincerely from deep down?
I seriously want everything to stay the way it is for many many years to come...

It's like, 'to the God that might exist somewhere, what is there of my future?'
What kind of life will it be? How hard? How good or bad?
I wonder, can it stay the same?
The same as now...

And one last thought,
it's like, 'Will there be less lies, more honesty and frankness from people I know?'
Can I hope to meet less lies and 'fake' people in the roads to come?
Can I hope all those around me stay true to me?
May things be how it is even if everything else changes..

Addicted to You...

According to me I'm boring, I'm moody
And you can't take me any place
According to me I suck at telling jokes
'Cause it always turns out to be lame

I'm the boy with the worst attention span
Who can't even show up on time
But addicted to you, addicted to you

Addicted to you so beautiful, incredible
I can't get you out of my head
Addicted to you so awesome, so irresistible
Everything I ever wanted

Everything is so great, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
I'm into you for everything you think you're not
Addicted to you

I know you want to feel appreciated
Like not hated, oh no
Why can't you see yourself through my eyes?
It's too bad, you're making me dizzy

According to me you're awesome, irresistible
You make me so addicted to you

Addicted to you so beautiful, incredible
I can't get you out of my head
Addicted to you so awesome, so irresistible
Everything I ever wanted

Everything is so great, I don't feel like stopping it
Baby tell me what I got to lose
I'm into you for everything you think you're not
Addicted to you, you
Addicted to you, you

According to me you're awesome, irresistible
You make me so addicted to you...

Adapted from 'According to You' by Orianthi.

Insane

The floor is beyond reach,
the cap visible to the naked eye,
hedge here, hedge there, but how to hedge?
It's growing insane, overflowing soon...

Imperfectness..

For the incorrect words I used to express myself at times,
for the hearing issues I have at times,
for my inability to cheer you up at times,
for my immaturity and stubbornness to hurt you at times,
for being unable to make you feel secured ad trust me,
for being so powerless,
for all my imperfectness,
I apologize deep down from my heart...

Lazy PLJH

I'm supposed to be studying.
I should be revising.
I told myself the clock is ticking.
But hey, here I am..
Lazy~ing, procrastinating, resting more than necessary...
Well, it's a lazy day~
Lazy PLJH..
BUCK UP! *karate kick*

She is...

She is...
My confidence,
my determination,
my happiness,
my strength,
my weakness,
my past,
my present,
my future,
my life,
my everything...

Question mark...

Hundreds of question marks...
What am I doing? Crap..

Hours, Minutes and Seconds...

P7 : 711 hrs
     x  60 mins = 42, 660 mins = 2, 559, 600 secs.
P4 : 759 hrs
     x  60 mins = 45, 540 mins = 2, 732, 400 secs.
P2 : 879 hrs
     x  60 mins = 52, 740 mins = 3, 164, 400 secs.

Using 711 hrs,
Sleeping time = Approx. 232 hrs.
Revision classes = Approx. 52 hrs.
Miscellaneous = Approx. 190 hrs.
Balance = Approx. 237 hrs = 14, 220 mins = 853, 200 secs.

The 'General's...

General this,
general that,
and in fact general rules...
But here I vow,
I shall not be amongst the general,
no matter how tough,
it is what I've chosen...

Disarray..

Everything is everywhere...
Everything is mixed up...
Everything is whereever...
Everything,
in utter disarray...

Pondering...

What will you do if you make someone feel fed up and suffering? ):
After all, sorry is just nothing but a word...
A word probably for the powerless..............

04112010

The last day to work and I'm off on study leave! =)) Originally 10th but made earlier to give myself more time to prepare..

P.S. Hope to see more of my baby too.. ^.^

Traffic Crawl...

Sometimes I just don't understand what the slow or bad crawl is all about...
Was it because not everyone is as efficient and effective?
Or because of the inefficiency of our traffic light system and road planning?
Or due to the inevitable incidents?
The weather?
Not to mention those busybodies?
Those ignorant fools?
And what about those policemen or policewomen?

How great can it be without all these crawls...

November...

It is revision month,
it is study month,
it is the month where unnecessary pressure and stress starts building up...
Also the month where procrastination claims major scalps...

22

It is the day I am 22nd,
it is also probably just another day of my life,
another passing day,
another 24 hours,
another scene forming the chapters of my life...

P.S. My baby's Facebook birthday wish.. xP

♥♥ Blessed Birthday Babe aka Patrick Lim ♥♥ 
I rejoice along w you in your journey of discovering the love of God for you and
I want to be the only hand you ever need to hold ♥♥  
p/s:early wishes as tmr having 10-5pm class. See ya tomorrow after my class end *hugs* XOXO

Love you, baby EveLyn! XOXO =))) 

P.S.S And thanks to all others that wish me as well.. =)

Me...

I am me,
the me that is me now,
no one else but me,
being me, the real me at you,
to always be the me that I am,
the true me I am always to you,
hoping to erase the doubts on me of yours,
to believe and trust it is in fact me...

Stressed Up...

I'm feeling super duper stressed up. Hard to separate the boundary between work and studies...

The Constant...

Let nothing change, change naught,
let the whole world change,
let others change,
but let not our heart change...
Let's stay true to each other till the end.. =)

251010 1:40AM

It is you that I crave so much for,
the one I care so much for,
wanted to do all I can to give you the best I could,
wanting you to know and believe in me,
that I am indeed true to you,
and will indeed give you all...

CE XOXO xP

C...
Ch...
Chi...
Chin...
Chin ...
Chin E...
Chin Ev...
Chin Eve...
Chin EveL...
Chin EveLy...
Chin EveLyn...
Chin EveLyn!
XOXO xP

Procrastination...

It kills! What have I been doing? Oh, crap....

Simple..

It's just a simple dream,
of a simple man,
filled with simple thoughts but clear determination,
of a simple but good life,
together with his loved one,
irregardless of how hard everything could be to achieve it,
it is just as simple as that...

20 days..

Another 20 more days..
Just 20 more days of work..
And I'm off to my revision schedule..
Oh days, please fly faster...

ALCS : Yankees vs Texas

Absolutely incredible Yankees! Beginning from seventh inning against the Rangers down 0-5 to the top 8th inning leading 6-5, another comeback to add to their 48 come-from-behind wins in the regular season + 3 more in the post-season against the Minnesota Twins. Go Yankees! One down, three more to win it and then to the World Series!

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1.03.01

The Mountains of Life...

Up and down,
there goes the life;
Once top, at top naught it remains;
But once down,
a wrong foot and to slide down without end;
Like a roller coaster some says,
a straight road at times,
but an uphill of mountains looms all of a sudden,
testing the strength and determination of every living species;
Just like the new background,
a picture of a life full of ups and downs...

11102010

Happy 22nd Birthday to my dear baby, Chin EveLyn!

May you be happy always! =)))

Messy Mess...

A bit of everything,
but in fact nothing;
jumbled up, muddled up,
blurry little Friday;
stuffed, everywhere,
yet nowhere is everything;
isolated, unrelated,
the start? The rear?
Mess, it's really a mess,
time, time, why did you go?
Running short,
and another is passing...

The Why and How...

A question raised during a lecture :

-Why and How is important to succeed, But which comes first?-

What do you think?

It's Why.. And why so?

The example used-Mulan..

If she were to think of 'How' to save his father from dying in the war, the chances are the dad would have gone to the battle and probably moved on. Instead, with a strong 'Why' i.e. a want to save his father, she went out to war to achieve her 'Why', fearing none of the consequences to herself.

Just like in life, when you falter along the way, a strong 'Why' will bring you back on track but when only a 'How' exist, you'll probably end up lost somewhere along the way, searching for your purpose and probably losing aim. 

So what do you think?

Scribbles...

Settled Down...

One thing at the moment before you continue reading, this is a super random post,as I have no idea what to write, so basically it's all crapping after this. Just wasting my time around a bit.. XD

Time is flying, it's October, everything is passing so fast and I wonder, what will happen in the next few months when I finally finish my last 3 papers? Off to the corporate world, how stressful can things gets? How busy will I get?And I'm still thinking, big four or to the firms introduced by my uncle? Somehow I secretly wish that I can venture to the corporate world on my own, without any help. But then it all depends on the situation I guess. Well, I shall have to start on my resume anytime soon.

On a separate matter, weeks of misunderstanding, months actually, and it all settle down just nicely. Me and my baby can finally start being ourselves where things should be like, less worrying as before, less stressful. Things were good again, if not busy. Everything is going just right on how it should have been. Miss you baby! =)

And a planned Singapore trip to look forward to somewhere around Christmas (Maybe we can meet up, Lee). But first, the focus is on the exams. 3 more papers, and I shall eat you all up! Two more months, to plan out my study time and working time well. Failure is NOT tolerable! Let's work hard everyone! =)

 

And I know I've said this before, but once again, I just can't wait for the next One Piece episodes! Just how strong will straw hat Luffy and his crew gets? Show us Eiichiro Oda!

One Piece

Just a random post.. One Piece rocks! Eagerly awaits the coming manga series.. =))

The Shade of Grey...

A fork reaching to two;
A left? A right? Where do they go?
A line divides, the silver lining;
But when two distinct lines meet, what exactly will happen?

Of hypocrisy, the reality is ruled;
Of Origin two distinct things, but now unknown of the boundary;
Words toyed, differential actions; how original is their originality?
The area of convergence, there lies the grey substance...

A Reality-to-be Dream

Reality is not always like what we want it to be,
just like,
me missing you but not being able to meet with you.
Waiting for our next meet,
creeping through the reality of life,
powerless I am to cause a revolution with the way things are.
Just gotta utilize fully all we have now,
to cherish and maximize the valuable time with you,
knowing that one day everything will be easier.
A one for one,
applying reality to our dreams,
to strive hard now for that vision to come true soon...

Mad - Ne Yo

She's starin' at me

I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'

Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'

And now it?s I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me

All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?

That we don't even remember why we?re fighting

So both of us are mad for

Nothing, fighting for

Nothin', crying for

Nothing, whoa

But we won?t let it go for

Nothing, no not for

Nothing, this should be

Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain

But baby, can we make up now?

'Cause I can't sleep through the pain

Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

Oh no no no

And it gets me upset

Girl when you?re constantly accusing

Askin' questions like you already know

We're fighting this war

Baby when both of us are losing

This ain't the way that love is supposed to go

Whoa, what happened to workin' it out?

We've fall into this place

Where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down

So what the hell do we do now?

It's all for

Nothing, fighting for

Nothing, crying for

Nothing, whoa

But we won?t let it go for

Nothing, no not for

Nothing, this should be

Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain

But baby, can we make up now?

'Cause I can't sleep through the pain

Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

Oh no no no

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect

Perfect, perfect, oh oh

And just how good it's gonna be

We can fuss and we can fight

Long as everything?s all right between us

Before we go to sleep

Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh

Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain

But baby, can we make up now?

'Cause I can't sleep through the pain

Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

Oh no no no

There's A Silly Girl...

There's a silly girl,
who once let him go away before,
just to regret, but she got him back again...

There's a silly girl,
who care much about him,
but loves to keep it inside, and voicing out contradictory words...

There's a silly girl,
wanna do lots for him,
but then neglecting herself, just for the sake of him...

There's a silly girl,
always with her own thoughts,
over-worrying this and that, oh, how silly she is...

There's a silly girl,
care she does for lots of things,
but what a pessimist, all opinions of herself are always of negative ones...

There's a silly girl,
fear and insecure easily she felt,
of reasons which he thinks is silly, he does, yea, he did...

There's a silly girl,
hard to trust him, easy on doubt,
pain she gives herself, when nothing wrong took place...

There's a silly girl,
pain she experience, unhappy she felt,
but never to express it out, seldom & hard, that's the word...

And a silly girl she is,
for the rest of my life, a girl that I wanna treasure and cherish well,
Lose not, doubt not, give all, trust everything, love sincerely, beautify the world-to her he wants to and shall...

Bonds...

Ratings, Coupon, Maturity, Bid, Ask, Ask Yield, Currency, Amount Issued, Recommendation, Analyst, Primary/Secondary Research...and it's not the end. But how to analyze?! An interesting assignment indeed. Time to brush up my investment knowledge..

On another separate topic... Well, I think the picture says it all... =)

The F-P Line...

Just The Way You Are ~ Bruno Mars

Her eyes, her eyes
make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday (yeahh)

I know, I know
When I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see
But everytime she asks me "Do I look okay?"
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh
she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfects what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
'Cause you know I'll say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are

I-M-I-S-S-Y-O-U

I

right in the midst of life   

a wish  

  hoping to see you now

 stronger and stronger it gets with every passing seconds

Y

O

U

In every part of my mind, of my world...

If I can Fly...

If I had wings to fly
I'd breathe in deep
and spread them wide
as I leap from the cliff
into the wind
where the gulls glide.

Crossing this wide sea
I glide above cruel waves
that reach up to drown my flight
in their cold deep
blue-green graves.

And as your day grows slowly light
I'd arrive on worn-out wings
to hold you
in your waking dreams
and feel you soft
and gently warm
in my embrace at last.

[Got it from facebook, not self-written for this, but title is edited.. =)]

More Than Words~~

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Weakness...

"It's quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness."

...

Stressed...

Some ramblings...

You know, it's really been some time ever since I write things out in a clear and direct manner. Looking back at my posts, it has all been in prose forms, well, you can't blame me, I have my reasons and preferences at times. (Not that anyone will read it if I write it out this way though. lol) Stupid one, I know.

So how're you guys doing? I;ve been busy, working throughout the weekdays, not to mention classes at some of the nights. It's just, well, I'm actually enjoying taking the extra burden. Not much free time, yup, but it feels like my time is spent in a better, much more meaningful way than before. (Not to mention the extra fold of income to be earned..=P) Extra responsibility, more experiences, some learning, well, yea, that's some of it.

Holiday season is pretty much over for most, though I guess I didn't meet up much with you guys. Been really busy. Apologies to Lee especially as he's been calling me few times, with almost each occasion resulting in me rejecting them. And for some moving on to their working life, all the best! =)

Dry and itchy-my sensitive skins is bothering me again, to the extent I sometimes woke up in the middle of the night by it. One said too much of air-cond. Another saying I should consume more 'better quality' oil, well, something like that. I wonder what's the best solution for it..

Well, I think I'm off for now. Short ramblings, as actually I'm not really in the mood for long posts, hope you guys is doing fine out there.. =)

Let It Be...

Anything...
Anywhere...
Anyhow...
Anytime...
Whatever...
Just let it be~~

The Eternal Present....

Another day,
a future of yesterday,
the passing of the past,
still at present,
as tomorrow never comes,
while yesterday remains a yesterday,
goes on like a routine,
but different in its content,
endless,
never fail to stop,
witnessing the entire events of the universe...

You, A Dream In Reality...

How it started,
on a journey back home,
a story created, a tale began,
blossom out, branching to a full grown tree...

Joys we have, happiness we share,
pain we felt, troubles we faced,
misunderstandings paved its way in,
but here we are,
once again still standing tall amidst it all...

Love being love,
through care appear fear,
come doubts, massive fear of losing it all,
but hey, not a chance to lose is given,
and by this on, live the invisible bond,
as more strands connects, the tougher it grows...

A memory to not forget,
a time to not be missed,
a dream to not be awakened from,
a you to be cherish well,
a love to hold tightly to,
a life with you to look forward to,
wanna live, forever holding you in this dream we're in...

4Men ft. Davichi – Can I Love Again

Korean

사랑하지 않는데 사랑인줄 알았대
사랑한다 말할땐 그런줄 알았대 사랑을 몰랐대

보내줘야 하는데 웃어줘야 하는데
눈 물이 왜 나는데
사랑이 아닌데 왜 눈물 나는데

잡고 싶은데 입이 떨어지질 않네요
잘가란 말이라도 해야죠 우린 여기까지죠

* 사랑이 깊어서 이별이 된거죠
조금만 사랑했더라면 떠나지 않았을텐데
생각이 너무 많아서 혼자서 이별을 만든거죠
헤어진 다음날에야 알았죠

다시 사랑 할 수 있을까

혼자 두면 어떡해
변 해버린 하루에 익숙하지 않은데
조급한 마음에 나 원망만 하는데

후회 하지만 다시 돌아갈순 없겠죠
내 마음은 그런게 아닌데 그땐 왜 보냈는데

Repeat *

끝난건가요
정말 끝난건가요
말이 없네요 언제나 그랬죠

언제나 말없이 내게 기댔었죠
그대는 내게
언제나 그랬었죠 마음둘 곳이 없네요
끝난거 죠

사랑이 깊어서 이별이 된거죠
조금만 사랑했더라면 떠나지 않았을텐데
생각이 너무 많아서 혼자서 이별을 만든거죠
어쩌다 우리가 이렇게 됬나요

기약도 없나요
어느날 처럼 내 전화를 기다리지는 않나요
자 존심 때문인가요
한번만 져줄수는 없나요
아직도 그댄 사랑을 모르죠

다시 사랑할수 있을까
그런날이 올수 있을까

다시 사랑 할 수 있을까

ROMANIZATION

Saranghaji anneunde saranginjul aratdae
Saranghanda maralttaen keureonjul aratdae sarngeul mollatdae

bonaejwoya haneunde useojwoya haneunde
Nunmuri wae naneunde
Sarangi aninde wae nunmul naneunde

Japgo sipeunde ipi tteoreojijil anneyo
Jalgaran marirado haeyajyo urin yeogikkajijyo

* Sarangi gipeoseo ibyeori doengeojyo
Jogeumman saranghaet deoramyeon tteonaji anasseul tende
saenggagi neomu manaseo honjaseo ibyeoreul mandeungeojyo
he eojin da eumnareya aratjyo

Dasi sarang hal su isseulkka

Honja dumyeon eotteokae
Byeonhaebeorin harue iksokaji aneunde
Jogeumhan ma eume na wonmangman haneunde

Huhoe hajiman dasi doragalsun eopgetjyo
Nae ma eumeun keureonge aninde keuttaen wae bonaetneunde

Repeat *

Kkeutnan geongayo
Jeongmal kkeutnan geongayo
mari eopneyo eonjena keuraetjyo

Eonjena mareopsi naege kidaesseotjyo
Keudaeneun naege
eonjena keuraesseotjyo ma eumdul gosi eopneyo
kkeutnangeojyo

sarangi gipeoseo ibyeori doengeojyo
jogeumman saranghaet deoramyeon tteonaji anasseul tende
saenggaki neomu manaseo honjaseo ibyeoreul mandeungeojyo
Eojjeoda uriga ireoke doetnayo

Kiyakdo eopnayo
eoneunal cheoreom nae jeonhwareul kidarijineun annayo
Jajonsim ttaemuningayo
Hanbeonman jyeojulsuneun eopnayo
Ajikdo keudaen sarangeul moreujyo

Dasi saranghalsu isseulkka
Keureonnari olsu isseulkka

Dasi sarang hal su isseulkka

TRANSLATION

I didn’t love , i didn’t know what love is
When you said you love me , I didnt know what love is
I shouldnt have let you go , i shouldnt have laughed
Why am i crying ,it wasnt love so why am i crying
-
I want to hold you , wont let you fall
I have to say good-bye , we end here
Our love was deep, but we have to breakup
If you loved me a bit more ,i wouldn’t have to leave
Dont think too much, you made this breakup yourself
We will be separated only for a few days ok ?
-
Could we love again
-
How can you leave, How can you change over night
I dont know you, Blame it only on my eager heart
-
Sorry but , i dont think i can come back again
You know my heart is not like that, So why did you send me away
Our love was deep, but we have to breakup
If you loved me a bit more ,i wouldnt have to leave
Dont think too much, you made this breakup youreself
We will be separated only for a few days ok ?
-
(Do you think it’s the end?)Do you think it’s the end?
(Do you really think its the end?)Do you think its the end?
(I’m speechless)It’s forever right?
-
Can you always be speechless to me
I was always like that, we don’t have hearts, it ends right?
-
Our love was deep, but we have to breakup
If you loved me a bit more, i wouldnt have to leave
Dont think too much, you made this breakup youreself
How can we do this
You have no one like me to call
-
You don’t have to wait
You cant lose even once because of youre pride
You still don’t know what love is
Could we love again
Could i see that day come
Could we love again

More Quotes...

I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.
~John Burroughs

Here is the test to find whether your mission on Earth is finished: if you're alive, it isn't.
~Richard Bach

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
~Robert Frost

It is not length of life, but depth of life.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

The purpose of life is a life of purpose.
~Robert Byrne


We are still masters of our fate.
We are still captains of our souls.
~Winston Churchill

Commitment leads to action. Action brings your dream closer.
~Marcia Wieder

Complicated yet simple..

All this while,
a simple guy on the outlook,
carefree probably, they think...
All this while,
hard to decipher they say,
complicated within...
All this while,
forming and understanding,
groping in the dark searching for the light,
in search of answers to everything...

On with time,
as the world complicates,
so do the social,
as of the task at hand,
probably along with the environment,
but that simple dream stays on,
a simple dream of a good life,
together with the loved one,
all the way through the rest of the journey...

All the doubts,
to challenge them,
to prove them wrong,
as no matter how the world changes,
some things just don't need to change...

To...

To Spain who wins the World Cup,
well done, World Champion, you did well...

To Mr. Paul, the octopus,
you've done well, time to head to the kitchen...

To the Earth I ask,
is 2012 your end?

To the people of the World,
what do you think of our World now?

To August, the month to come,
may it be a month filled with good tidings...

To this World I wonder,
what am I sent here for?

To the unknown future,
am I allowed a glimpse of what is to come?

To the doubts that fills the heart,
will the future shows you an exit door?

To the griefs of the soul,
have I seen the last? Or is there more?

To the love I seek,
To plead a long-life one it be...

And to you who worry much,
I wish I can quench some, if not all of it...

Unrest...

Unrest,
worried,
anxious,
fear of what might happen,
as the day looms,
a month approximately,
what will it be?
As planned? Or against?
Numerous days...
Short it is, but a long wait for the soul...

The She of My World

Comfortable and relaxing, found never before...
A solution to the soul, when stresses and tensions weave in...
Just the mere presence, at peace of mind I shall be...
Sounds fairytale like? But that's how it is...

A keeper she is, speaks not of her inner truth...
A thinker she is, in her own world with much pessimism...
A hard past, a low self-esteem but of great will and determination...
Clumsy, silly and blur (?), but tough she is...

As with everyone, people come with good and bad opinions...
While people come up with their views, but views are just mere views...
For at the end of the day, it's the bond that matters most to me...
Clear of the boundary, for all is her life and freedom to live...

As good as my World, her happiness brings me joy...
A wish to be there for her, be it good and bad times...
The one and only, to do my best for her...
With time to come, to hope that it'll flourish well...

The Resolution...

A blockade in the middle of the road,
a hindrance along the way...
To turn back? To face it?
Or an alternative path it shall be?

Decision, decision and decisions...
Thousands of thoughts, millions of crosses...
In a dilemma, faced with the unknowns...
Cry will the World? Or laugh will it be?

Of lines, appear the vague spheres;
As the clock ticks, crystallize it becomes;
Hard as the stone, firm as the rock;
And thus a resolution forms amidst it all...

Where the dawn rises, where the crow flies...

The eventual beginning,
of a dawn in the making,
of faith, of hope, of beliefs,
twisting through the thousand slippery steps,
under the playful hand of God,
like the pieces on a chessboard, moving on and struggling on...

Till the eventual ending,
of an end in the end,
where the crow crows and flies,
an end to seeking of what to be seek,
an end where loss will always be a loss,
an end of pitch darkness, but the clock still ticks on...

At times,
when sorrow tunes in loud,
when the world bared its fangs,
or when reality strikes hard,
comes a wish of the piece of darkness,
a wish for an end to the seeking, an end to the dawn...

Kissin U - Miranda Cosgrove...

Sparks fly
Its like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breath
You get closer and there’s
No where in this world I’d rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Its frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I’ve never seen

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

Past loves
They never got really far
Walls of made sure
I’ve got in my heart
And I promise I wouldn’t do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

I’ve never felt nothing like this
You’re making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it’s love

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

And so a Question...

A question of thought...

What do you do when the World starts darkening?

The Rendezvous of Reminiscence...

A rewind of the storyline,
to each imperfect plots affecting the flow,
a consideration of the various 'if's,
of the many paths of what would have been,
alas, it is all nothing, but 'but's...

Running parallel with the axis of time,
as millions converged,
intertwining, complicating and transforming themselves,
to a point of rendezvous, where past and present is merged,
the rendezvous of reminiscence...

Another draw and let's call it a day...

First, we have some help from Green for the first draw, and if that's not enough, England earned themselves another one. Just WTH is Capello thinking about when he decided to put Wright-Phillips, Defoe and Crouch when we lack creative players like Joe Cole?! Arghh..... Get another draw and you can call it a day, England...

In the EPL: Rooney will score left and right; Lampard will score with either foot with his eyes shut at times; Terry never misses a tackle; Gerrard passes through balls past 4 or 5 defenders...
In World Cup: Rooney can't even get his first touch right; Lampard won't score even after 29 shots; Terry will allow the simplest ball to get past him; Gerrard can't even pass the ball past a single opposition player...

I just can't agree more with this! Well, it's just like...WTHeck! Winning the World Cup, well, I really think that's some big talk from Capello considering the current performance of theirs...

Just a Part of It...

Non-Substitutable...
Independent...
 Non-Replaceable...
 Yearned...
Hot...
 Lovable...
 Eye catching ...
Comfortable...
 Valuable...
 Elegant...

Zero.....

It finally ended! *Huge sigh of relief* Well, the tension had already gone off by the time I finished my f7, but looking at the p3 paper, I felt just great! I think I did a fairly good job to be honest. My best paper thus far, and the exams are all over..

Well, now that it's over, I somehow had a nervy feeling with regards to my f7, f9 and P1. Somehow feels that they are somewhat poorly done. I just hope that I get through, well, if I assume my marks allocation is correct, I probably will..=)

And thus a new semester shall start. How will I perform the next time? Well, we shall know...

Really enjoy the company of baby EveLyn! Gonna miss the time together once the busy semester starts! =)
=)))))))))))

One...

F7...Hmmm...I think I'll somehow sneak through the examiner's slippy fingers, just like the ball does with Green. Well, I did all my statements, though hell knows why ALL of them didn't balance! No, not even my conso..WTHeck...Never mind, pass will do..=))) And now for P3!! =)))

1...0.0

Two...

Two done, and two left. And there goes my first experience of P papers. Slow starter, and I have to rush at the end. Well, nothing much. Just another paper...

Hmmm... Already spotted few mistakes, and well never mind. At least I try to finish all, though left about +-15 marks I assumed. Okay, maybe a moderate score can be expected, though I'm not buying that, because I just don't know what score to expect, or how well or bad I did... But now I kinda feel I did badly.. =(

Don't feel great, well, post-exam syndrome I guess, neither do I feel disappointed or regret, no, I don't. I just want to get it done with-my last 2 papers and look forward to a new semester. But somehow feels like I'm missing something, a void...I wonder what it is..=( And somehow I can't wait to sit for p3! =)

2...=.0

World Cup~ Plans & Strategies

World Cup is coming. Well, saw this 'plans' in my friend, Lee's blog. Have a look...

Anyway, GO ENGLAND!!! =))

Three...

Turns out to be a great first day. Well, I know my stuff pretty well, not expecting good score, but a pass, yea, probably. No guarantee of course. Though didn't have a good night sleep, but it was worth the hard work. Plus thanks to the accompany of someone, well, she just makes my day.. =)

3...=.=

Four...

Approximately a day left to my first paper, somehow I'm feeling calm but sick and stressed up! Holy crap! Good or bad? No idea. I just wanna get it over as soon as possible. Sigh... Bless me.. I should continue studying now... >.<

4...>.<

Here We Go...

ALL THE BEST, PEOPLE! LET IT BE US THAT HAUNT THEM!!! =))

June, the wait...

Finally it's June,
finally it's nearing,
the wait, not long, so long, it's beginning....

To the World, To him...

Empty, yea, that's it.

Facing this screen, intense in thoughts, yet nothing, nothing seems to come out.

So much to ponder, so much to revise, yet so little it seems...

Thinking of the time slipping through his grasp,

of loved one,

of the unknown future,

of this crying world,

so complex, yet it is just a small train of thoughts that come and go,

simple, naive thoughts as compared to the harsh reality...

After all, just a tiny speckle of life from this bigger world,

what is a small life to the bigger stream of life?

An insignificant dots in a world map?

A dull human amongst the billions of human?

A drop of water among the sea of water?

To the world, probably he's just a nothing,

But to him, the world is probably holding all the things he wants and crave...

The Unsilent Silence...

Out calm, but deep depth inwards;
A one in real, but many in one;
Simple it seems, but complicated it gets;
Nothing at all, but yet something it is...

Silent as the night, silent as the dark;
But amidst this silence, rocks the inaudible tunes;
A silence like other, yet a silence like naught;
Silence it is, if the silence get silenced...

Pyramid ~ Charice (feat. Iyaz)

Shawty's love is like a pyramid (ooh)
We stand together till the very end (eh ooh)
There'll never be another love for sure (ooh)
Iyaz and Charice let we go

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown (shown)
Solid as the ground we've known (known)
And I just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up (no no no)
And even in a desert storm (yeah)
Sturdy as a rock we hold (oh)
Wishing every moment froze
Now I just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can't shake us
Cyclones can't break us
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh (oooh)

Cold (cold), never ever when you're close (close)
We will never let it fold (fold)
A story that was never told
Something like a mystery (yoh! )
And every step we took we've grown
Look how fast the time has flown
A journey to a place unknown
We're going down in history
Earthquakes can't shake us (oh)
Cyclones can't break us (oh)
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (hey! )
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top, (at the top baby) like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing (wind is blowing)
We'll never fall just keep it going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid (eh oh)

Like a pyramid girl let me show you
That I love you so much
That we gonna get through (oh oh)
Even when there's storms
I will never go, Ima be the one to keep you safe (hey)
Before was our love back it up more than enough
Holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough (oh oh)
Mother nature (hey) or disaster won't stop at happy ever after

Pyramid, keep it going (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)
Oh oh ooooh (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (solid rock)
It feels just like it's heaven's touch (oooh)
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay (Charice), like a pyramid (what what)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid (pyramid)
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep it going
Forever we will stay (ooh), like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh

I=ME=Relief? =)

To finally know the few ugly truths,
hard it is, pain it seems, rough it may be,
probably too late or probably not...
But a real relief,
where some have been addressed,
that some minute yet disastrous details have been part of those...
After all this time stuck in the deep dark well knowing naught,
so into my own little world till unnoticed it went,
a deep regret, but better now than never...
To be the me that I am,
probably an evolved me, revolutionize not,
for I am me after all...=)

The Dark Alleyway...

Thud, thud, thud, comes the echoes arising from the footsteps;
In this dark alleyway, the young boy walks;
No light in sight, it's all pitch black;
Feeling his way ahead, with the help of the walls around him...

As with each step taken, rise the fear of the unseen;
As uneven footing, threaten to fell him down;
Up come the end, as few roads diverge;
At this juncture, confused, which road should he take?

Time and Again : The Few Common Problems...

Facing my lecture notes on the table,

going through the lines of words that I have to take in,

I ask myself,

"Why am I reading back the same line over and over again?!"

Looking at the wall opposite me,

staring into space, mind deep in thoughts,

again I ask myself,

"Why can't I concentrate and focus well?!"

Strolling around the web,

trying to relax this cloudy mind,

but then I ask myself,

"Why come the headache? Damn the weather..."

As the clock automatically ticks away,

gulping up the remaining time I have left,

"Buck up, young man.

Remember, even one day can make a whole lot of difference. Use the time well..."

Friendship...

How exactly do you define good friends?

A very subjective question indeed. For at the end of the day, no one definition can best describe it clearly. What is a good friend? Indeed, what makes someone as a good friend-probably the best definition will be from ourselves defining it on our own. And who are these good friends? Probably they are those who support you till the end, always a helping hand ready to lend out, sincere throughout expecting nothing in return, probably it is. Or probably not. For at the end of the day, it's how we define good friends that leads to whether someone is a good friend or not. 

In life, we probably wouldn't meet much good and sincere friends, but when they do come, keep them, cherish them well, because we might probably not find many more of them for the rest of our lives...

........................................!?

.......................................................Sigh...........................

3.38am

3.38am-That's the time shown on my desktop. And WTH am I doing here? Nowhere near my bed of course, not even notes. It's facebook, twitter, you-tube, sports, blah blah blah... Damn! But I still don't feel like occupying my time with studies..xD 

Browse through my friend's blog and came across some cool car pics. Look at this...

Lamborghini Reventon and McLaren F1.. Wow.. Cool cars! I love them.. Well,...... One day probably.. One day la, one day.. lol..

Sigh... What a lazy night. Idling around trying to relax after a tiring day. But somehow crappy thoughts keep filling up my head, like some irritating flies buzzing around, though the thoughts themselves are not what I will call irritating. Best to think nothing, have a clear and focus mind to detect the subtle discontinuities, oops.. P3-Mintzberg 'emergent strategy' theory. Crap, too much of studying.. xD

Alright, a topic for discussion-Global warming, increasing earthquake frequencies, major volcanic eruptions, typhoons/hurricanes, blah blah blah... So they say signs of end times huh? Well, it's not like it matters as  the rumours said its 2 more years to come-well, you get what I mean. I know, it's BS, scientifically proven not true or whatever it is that the 'science' said, but the question is 'What IF it is real?'. Maybe not 2 years, but SOON. How soon I don't know, but just think IF it's real, what's your plan? Hmm.. Any contingency plans? 

Move on to philosophies, I recently saw a philosophy on money quoted in a financial magazine-here it goes..

"You can't do without money, but don't let it control you. You need to see its value in the proper place in your life. One of the biggest problems is greed and letting it control your life and your decisions. Because of greed, people go to war and break the law, even people who are rich wouldn't be able to spend all their wealth in their lifetime."

Hmmm.. Very true, human greed-not an uncommon thing nowadays. At the end of the day, money is after all just a human creation, bringing with it no value other than in the world we are in now. Important as it is, just remember that money is not everything. Do not let money control us, do not let it be a reason for conflicts. Well, since money bring so much troubles, why not just give them all to me? I'll take care of the troubles for you. Oops.. xp

And exam stress...You know when you start talking a lot to yourself and when you use a lot of those study terms, you're probably having exam stress, or just too immersed in studying. How bout pimples? Black eyes aka panda eyes, pale and tired faces, exploding heads, headache, 'chronic misbehaviours', amongst others...All right, I'm no expert here. But let's just work hard together people.. =)

OMG, it's 4.19am already! Degree of blurness-exceeding 90%. I'd better tune in. Adios, folks!

Of Form, Of Substance, Of Hell!

Till now, nothing has change...
Or if there is, probably just incremental ones...
Probably a slow, bit-by-bit differences by the day...
Just as stated in Balogun and Hailey's model of change...

A change it could be in its form,
but yet the substance remains untouched...
A constant it stays deep within,
maintaining in itself of what is and what have been...

But for now, Caution! As Hell is approaching...
Conflicts begone, the minds beware...
For the end is near, the consequences can be dire...
Should care and due diligence be a long-term absentee...

Breathe~Taylor Swift ft Colbie Caillait

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

So behind the schedule...

Oh, crap! I'm so so so behind the schedule in my studies. Faced with a free day and yet I barely move an inch! Holy shit. Gotta catch up by going full blast as the clock ticks midnight. Should be more disciplined. MUST be...

The Essence of Trust...

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,

"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me,

chances are that I may let your hand go.

But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,

you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours...
This message is too short......but carries a lot of Feelings.

Maybe I am dreaming...

Lying on the white pebble beach,

listening to the rushing sound of the water,

bathed by the light of the full moon,

as I gaze at the galaxy of stars high above,

hoping to see meteor showering the sky,

enjoying the serenity and peacefulness of the moment,

of a smaller world separated from its bigger piece...

Alone I am on this island,

free from the hustle and bustle of city life,

filled with the wonderful scent of nature,

as thousands of fireflies stroll around everywhere,

just like a replica of the starry sky above,

lighting up the whole island like as though it is alive,

a beautiful scene,

a beautiful memory to be preserved forever...

Up I get to walk around the island,

towards the source of the music of nature,

humming about the silent night in a relaxed manner,

as I feel the cool fresh air deep inside my lungs,

then comes the dripping sound of the rain,

filling the air with coldness and wetness,

as the night gets older by the minute,

bringing more and more light to the darkness...

Out come the sun from the east,

as the rain decelerate from a drizzle to a stop,

bringing out the seven colors of the rainbow,

of which it is said the ends connects two unknown worlds,

as I walk towards the center of the island,

a point that oversees the whole tiny island,

high up above all, just like the throne of a King,

such a dreamlike place, a fantasy, maybe I am just dreaming...