To the World, To him...

Empty, yea, that's it.

Facing this screen, intense in thoughts, yet nothing, nothing seems to come out.

So much to ponder, so much to revise, yet so little it seems...

Thinking of the time slipping through his grasp,

of loved one,

of the unknown future,

of this crying world,

so complex, yet it is just a small train of thoughts that come and go,

simple, naive thoughts as compared to the harsh reality...

After all, just a tiny speckle of life from this bigger world,

what is a small life to the bigger stream of life?

An insignificant dots in a world map?

A dull human amongst the billions of human?

A drop of water among the sea of water?

To the world, probably he's just a nothing,

But to him, the world is probably holding all the things he wants and crave...

The Unsilent Silence...

Out calm, but deep depth inwards;
A one in real, but many in one;
Simple it seems, but complicated it gets;
Nothing at all, but yet something it is...

Silent as the night, silent as the dark;
But amidst this silence, rocks the inaudible tunes;
A silence like other, yet a silence like naught;
Silence it is, if the silence get silenced...

Pyramid ~ Charice (feat. Iyaz)

Shawty's love is like a pyramid (ooh)
We stand together till the very end (eh ooh)
There'll never be another love for sure (ooh)
Iyaz and Charice let we go

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown (shown)
Solid as the ground we've known (known)
And I just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up (no no no)
And even in a desert storm (yeah)
Sturdy as a rock we hold (oh)
Wishing every moment froze
Now I just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can't shake us
Cyclones can't break us
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh (oooh)

Cold (cold), never ever when you're close (close)
We will never let it fold (fold)
A story that was never told
Something like a mystery (yoh! )
And every step we took we've grown
Look how fast the time has flown
A journey to a place unknown
We're going down in history
Earthquakes can't shake us (oh)
Cyclones can't break us (oh)
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (hey! )
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top, (at the top baby) like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing (wind is blowing)
We'll never fall just keep it going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid (eh oh)

Like a pyramid girl let me show you
That I love you so much
That we gonna get through (oh oh)
Even when there's storms
I will never go, Ima be the one to keep you safe (hey)
Before was our love back it up more than enough
Holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough (oh oh)
Mother nature (hey) or disaster won't stop at happy ever after

Pyramid, keep it going (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)
Oh oh ooooh (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (solid rock)
It feels just like it's heaven's touch (oooh)
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay (Charice), like a pyramid (what what)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid (pyramid)
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep it going
Forever we will stay (ooh), like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh

I=ME=Relief? =)

To finally know the few ugly truths,
hard it is, pain it seems, rough it may be,
probably too late or probably not...
But a real relief,
where some have been addressed,
that some minute yet disastrous details have been part of those...
After all this time stuck in the deep dark well knowing naught,
so into my own little world till unnoticed it went,
a deep regret, but better now than never...
To be the me that I am,
probably an evolved me, revolutionize not,
for I am me after all...=)

The Dark Alleyway...

Thud, thud, thud, comes the echoes arising from the footsteps;
In this dark alleyway, the young boy walks;
No light in sight, it's all pitch black;
Feeling his way ahead, with the help of the walls around him...

As with each step taken, rise the fear of the unseen;
As uneven footing, threaten to fell him down;
Up come the end, as few roads diverge;
At this juncture, confused, which road should he take?

Time and Again : The Few Common Problems...

Facing my lecture notes on the table,

going through the lines of words that I have to take in,

I ask myself,

"Why am I reading back the same line over and over again?!"

Looking at the wall opposite me,

staring into space, mind deep in thoughts,

again I ask myself,

"Why can't I concentrate and focus well?!"

Strolling around the web,

trying to relax this cloudy mind,

but then I ask myself,

"Why come the headache? Damn the weather..."

As the clock automatically ticks away,

gulping up the remaining time I have left,

"Buck up, young man.

Remember, even one day can make a whole lot of difference. Use the time well..."

Friendship...

How exactly do you define good friends?

A very subjective question indeed. For at the end of the day, no one definition can best describe it clearly. What is a good friend? Indeed, what makes someone as a good friend-probably the best definition will be from ourselves defining it on our own. And who are these good friends? Probably they are those who support you till the end, always a helping hand ready to lend out, sincere throughout expecting nothing in return, probably it is. Or probably not. For at the end of the day, it's how we define good friends that leads to whether someone is a good friend or not. 

In life, we probably wouldn't meet much good and sincere friends, but when they do come, keep them, cherish them well, because we might probably not find many more of them for the rest of our lives...

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.......................................................Sigh...........................

3.38am

3.38am-That's the time shown on my desktop. And WTH am I doing here? Nowhere near my bed of course, not even notes. It's facebook, twitter, you-tube, sports, blah blah blah... Damn! But I still don't feel like occupying my time with studies..xD 

Browse through my friend's blog and came across some cool car pics. Look at this...

Lamborghini Reventon and McLaren F1.. Wow.. Cool cars! I love them.. Well,...... One day probably.. One day la, one day.. lol..

Sigh... What a lazy night. Idling around trying to relax after a tiring day. But somehow crappy thoughts keep filling up my head, like some irritating flies buzzing around, though the thoughts themselves are not what I will call irritating. Best to think nothing, have a clear and focus mind to detect the subtle discontinuities, oops.. P3-Mintzberg 'emergent strategy' theory. Crap, too much of studying.. xD

Alright, a topic for discussion-Global warming, increasing earthquake frequencies, major volcanic eruptions, typhoons/hurricanes, blah blah blah... So they say signs of end times huh? Well, it's not like it matters as  the rumours said its 2 more years to come-well, you get what I mean. I know, it's BS, scientifically proven not true or whatever it is that the 'science' said, but the question is 'What IF it is real?'. Maybe not 2 years, but SOON. How soon I don't know, but just think IF it's real, what's your plan? Hmm.. Any contingency plans? 

Move on to philosophies, I recently saw a philosophy on money quoted in a financial magazine-here it goes..

"You can't do without money, but don't let it control you. You need to see its value in the proper place in your life. One of the biggest problems is greed and letting it control your life and your decisions. Because of greed, people go to war and break the law, even people who are rich wouldn't be able to spend all their wealth in their lifetime."

Hmmm.. Very true, human greed-not an uncommon thing nowadays. At the end of the day, money is after all just a human creation, bringing with it no value other than in the world we are in now. Important as it is, just remember that money is not everything. Do not let money control us, do not let it be a reason for conflicts. Well, since money bring so much troubles, why not just give them all to me? I'll take care of the troubles for you. Oops.. xp

And exam stress...You know when you start talking a lot to yourself and when you use a lot of those study terms, you're probably having exam stress, or just too immersed in studying. How bout pimples? Black eyes aka panda eyes, pale and tired faces, exploding heads, headache, 'chronic misbehaviours', amongst others...All right, I'm no expert here. But let's just work hard together people.. =)

OMG, it's 4.19am already! Degree of blurness-exceeding 90%. I'd better tune in. Adios, folks!

Of Form, Of Substance, Of Hell!

Till now, nothing has change...
Or if there is, probably just incremental ones...
Probably a slow, bit-by-bit differences by the day...
Just as stated in Balogun and Hailey's model of change...

A change it could be in its form,
but yet the substance remains untouched...
A constant it stays deep within,
maintaining in itself of what is and what have been...

But for now, Caution! As Hell is approaching...
Conflicts begone, the minds beware...
For the end is near, the consequences can be dire...
Should care and due diligence be a long-term absentee...

Breathe~Taylor Swift ft Colbie Caillait

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

So behind the schedule...

Oh, crap! I'm so so so behind the schedule in my studies. Faced with a free day and yet I barely move an inch! Holy shit. Gotta catch up by going full blast as the clock ticks midnight. Should be more disciplined. MUST be...

The Essence of Trust...

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,

"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me,

chances are that I may let your hand go.

But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,

you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours...
This message is too short......but carries a lot of Feelings.

Maybe I am dreaming...

Lying on the white pebble beach,

listening to the rushing sound of the water,

bathed by the light of the full moon,

as I gaze at the galaxy of stars high above,

hoping to see meteor showering the sky,

enjoying the serenity and peacefulness of the moment,

of a smaller world separated from its bigger piece...

Alone I am on this island,

free from the hustle and bustle of city life,

filled with the wonderful scent of nature,

as thousands of fireflies stroll around everywhere,

just like a replica of the starry sky above,

lighting up the whole island like as though it is alive,

a beautiful scene,

a beautiful memory to be preserved forever...

Up I get to walk around the island,

towards the source of the music of nature,

humming about the silent night in a relaxed manner,

as I feel the cool fresh air deep inside my lungs,

then comes the dripping sound of the rain,

filling the air with coldness and wetness,

as the night gets older by the minute,

bringing more and more light to the darkness...

Out come the sun from the east,

as the rain decelerate from a drizzle to a stop,

bringing out the seven colors of the rainbow,

of which it is said the ends connects two unknown worlds,

as I walk towards the center of the island,

a point that oversees the whole tiny island,

high up above all, just like the throne of a King,

such a dreamlike place, a fantasy, maybe I am just dreaming...

Different day, same old....

As I drive through the same old streets,

as I walk on the same old pavements,

as I see back the same old faces,

as I read through the same old notes,

as I face this routineness again and again,

these feelings of deja vu,

as though the past is repeating itself,

but a look at the calendar,

a different day it is,

a different day,

but of the same old...