The Elusive Factors...

Why do I do this?

Why do I do that?

What do I live for?

Why am I working so hard for?

Because that's what we should do?

Because everyone's doing the same thing?

Or because it is the right thing to do?

Even if everything will eventually ends into nothingness..

So why?

What's all this for?

Well, that's a good question.

I wonder...

What all this really means...

What's the meaning of me in this world...

Why am doing this and that...

And I wonder...

What do I seek from all that I'm doing...

What's the objective?

And where can i find the motivation to strive me on...

Where indeed...

Once I heard of how a man, embarked on a failed mission to the moon before Neil Armstrong, left hovering few miles above the moon. Of how this man, who actually had the chance to see the Earth with his own eyes from a distance in the universe, of how small the Earth looks to him at that position, of which a thumb is sufficient to cover the whole Earth. It was of then that this man, now a grandpa, told the world in his biography that of how his view and his perspective of life changed, of the way he look at things ever again back on Earth.

Sounds so stupid and yet its true...

Sounds so easy and yet so hard...

I wonder when I will find the elusive things...

And I hope to find it fast...

Anime

Anime (アニメ, an abbreviated pronunciation in Japanese of "animation", pronounced [anime] in Japanese, or /ˈænəˌmə/ in English) is animation originating in Japan. The world outside Japan regards anime as "Japanese animation". Anime originated about 1917.

That's from Wiki all right. I guess you guys know what that is. Some call it cartoon, or that's what most of the adults call it. Well, as some of you might know, I enjoy watching them. Some of those that I really like includes:-

• Gundam Seed
• Gundam Seed Destiny
• Gundam 00
• One Piece
• Code Geass
• Clannad
  
• D-Grayman

That's some of those that I like. Yeah, most of them goes with the theme of war. To me, they carry lots of meaning in their show, not just any simple cartoons. In a war, you will have lots of conflicts going on, self-conflicts, cloose friends, love, country and blah blah. I know the anime just exaggerate things a lot, but still, it's just a show after all. And maybe you might want to place yourself in those kind of situations and see how you fare.

I do know lots of people don't really see what's so interesting with them. I guess different people have different likings. To me, anime brings in a world where lots of things that's impossible become possible. There are some things that I feels a real movie, and by that I mean those made with real actors, will not be able to be produced to be as good as what anime can. Just an opinion.

Well, enough with the babbling. I have no idea why I'm posting these anyway. Days have been busy these days, though they were good. Hope yours are too. =)

And here, I introduce the song 'Fields of Hope' by Rie Tanaka. Pretty old song but I hope you enjoy it. =)

Fields of Hope

Gundam Seed Destiny

Rie Tanaka

konna ni tsumetai tobari no fukaku de
anata wa hitori de nemutteru
inori no utagoe sabishii nohara wo
chiisa na hikari ga terashiteta

anata no yume wo miteta
kodomo no you ni waratteta
natsukashiku mada tooku
sore wa mirai no yakusoku

itsuka midori no asa ni
itsuka tadoritsukeru to
fuyugareta kono sora wo
shinjiteiru kara
Fields of hope

umarete kita hi ni dakishimete kureta
yasashii ano te wo sagashiteru
inori no utagoe hitotsu kiete mata hajimaru
tayorinaku setsunaku tsuzuku

itsuka midori no asa e
subete no yoru wo koete
sore wa tada hitori zutsu
mitsukete yuku basho dakara

ima wa tada kono mune de
anata wo atatametai
natsukashiku mada tooi
yasuragi no tame ni
Fields of hope

natsukashiku mada tooi
yakusoku no nohara
Fields of hope
Fields of hope 

Translation

Beneath a veil so cold and deep,
I watched you as you deeply sleep
The melody of prayer; on the lonely fields,
a little light shone

I watched as you dreamed
You laughed like a child
So dear, and yet so far -
That is the promise of our future

That one day, on a green morning,
One day, we will make it there
Because in this wintered sky
We still believe
Fields of Hope

On the day we were born, we were embraced
And now we search for those gentle hands again
The melody of prayer; one vanishes,
And all begins again; a powerful, painful continuation

One day, to that green morning,
We'll cross through all these nights
Because that is the place each one of us searches for

Now, within my own heart,
I want to keep you warm
So dear, and yet so far -
In the name of peace
Fields of Hope

So dear, and yet so far -
The fields of promise
Fields of Hope
Fields of Hope

The Chain Continues...

I remembered it was back in late September when I start following his blog. It was recommended by Kim Ayres in his post 'A blogger recommends...'.

And I remembered clearly back then that I chose to follow these two blogs-Mary Witzl of ResidentAlien and Sang Lee’s Yellow Son. Both are good writers, both write wonderful posts, and ever since that day, I know I've not missed any posts that they wrote ever since. A big thanks to Kim for the recommendation-they are really one of those fantastic blogs that I've read!

I guess that you have known, or might not know that I'm just fresh from receiving two sad news, the first being a serious stroke, the second-death from heart attack [Wei Soong's dad]... Here I was, thinking that the chain of sad news has ended, that it'll be some time more before I get to hear them again.

It was a stupid thought really.

And who would have thought that on this very day I get to know that Sang Lee, the owner of Yellow Son blog had passed away few days before this. I was shocked, unable to believe what I read with my eyes, but as I go on, the truth sink in-that I'll never ever again get to read his writings...

Never ever again...

No words can describe my feelings now. True, I have undergo this before. But when my dad passed away, I was just seven. All I remembered was me happily burning away those 'I-have-no-idea-what-you-called-those-papers' or 'offerings'. Even when my friend passed away back in standard 6 and form 5, there's no such feeling!

Never before...

But having followed him for just a few months, reading his posts, his wonderful stories of his past and his present, just made me feel like as I though I knew him well, although we have never met before.

It may be just me having this kind of feeling, well, I don't know, but it is certainly my first time.

Just as Kim said, the world do seems to be a little less colorful now...

To think that he's gone...

To think that I will not be able to read his stories anymore...

...

It's just so unexpected, to think that I just wrote that 'people come, people go' in my last post. And barely 24 hours after, I got this news. Damn! But that's life after all. It's full of the unexpected. Always are...

To Sang Lee,

Although we barely knew (the existence) of each other,

I just want you to know that,

Even if you're gone, you shall be remembered by us always.

Your memory and your words will live on.

Goodbye, my friend...

Messing Around With Blogger Template...

There you go, I changed my template. And what a sweat that is!

Really troublesome.

I searched for it from a website that I have forgotten the name of, I copied and pasted and then re-pasted most of my sidebar html code, arranged them properly, changed some of the fonts and colors,

and in the end,

I actually think I should have chosen a template with light colors, damn! I should have thought of that earlier. Sigh..

It's too late to change then. I thought it's really not worth the trouble and time of getting through all those processes again, and so here you see the final piece of it. I know it's not great but hope it looks good to you.

So how have you guys been? I've been busy with work, more on online work recently. A few couple of assignments to be completed before I get to earn my share. =D And classes have been good, though I spent some part of my first few classes getting drowsy halfway through them.XD The only thing I hate now is having have to wait for about one and a half month before I get to know my result, the one thing that will wreck my early plans.

As you guys can see, my week had been pleasant, but not so much for a number of my friends. I received two bad news recently.

First, my friend's dad is seriously ill with stroke. Well, I hope he will get well soon. Let's hope for the best!

Secondly, another friend's dad passed away due to a heart attack. It seems like what is supposed to be a holiday (as I heard his dad is out on holiday when that happened.) turned into a sad tragedy. My condolences to him and his family.

Life is certainly short. I wonder when next will such news come again. People come, people go. The people you see today might not be here tomorrow. It might even be your loved ones, the people you're close with, etc. It's cruel, but that's reality. Let's just cherish the moment we have with them well...

There Goes My holidays...

New Year had just ended. So how's your New Year, guys? Fun? I guess it is. Nothing great for my New Year, but not a bad one. Went to Desa Parkcity to watch the fireworks display. Man, it was damn crowded there. And worse thing is after the fireworks ended, as you guys know, there's nothing to do there. So I ended up joining some friends for 'late-night' or rather an early morning 'yum-cha' session in SS2 Murni.

And then the day after, we had a small ex-5E meet for a movie-Cirque du Freak and mamak session at Spicy. Roughly 6 to 7 person made it. Quite some time since I met with them, seems like everyone doing great! And the final day of my holidays, well, nothing great-just a birthday party sums it all.

With that, my holidays end, signaling the beginning of a new semester. 2010 should be my final year, or hopefully it is. It's finally the professional papers-meaning I really should get serious now. I've been doing my best not to be enjoying too much this holidays-hoping that I can focus better in my studies.

Well, I'm not gonna write much here. Doesn't seem to have much mood to blog. Well, hope you guys have a good year ahead! (and the same to me! XD)

Happy 2010!

Its here!

It's 2010!

Time flies and another year gone...

Let's hope it's a great year ahead!

Well, happy 2010, folks! =D