Saturday, October 31, 2009

21 today..

It's 31st of October, it's Hallowe'en, and yes, it's my birthday! My 21st birthday! So how do I feel about being 21? Many people say that this is the age where you are officially off-age. In other words, I'm no longer a teenager but a man? Hmmm.. Funny but I actually don't feel like I'm any wiser than I am before this, don't feel any taller, fatter, more mature, or just anything that's different. I'm still the same jerk that I was before this, if not worse. It's just another ordinary day like any other day, maybe just plus a bit of celebration. A day that will be gone in moments that feels like just seconds away.

Born in the year of 1988, and after much scolding, nagging, shouting, talking-from parents; influences from relatives, friends, school teachers, and everyone else that I can't think of at the moment (how bout you? =)), this is the PLJH that you know now-a lazy, sporty, quiet, likes to procrastinate,...and whatever else you can add on. Well, birthdays have always been a normal thing to me, in the sense that it is not really a great cause for celebration for me. The last birthday I celebrated was back when I was 17, that's four years ago, but I guess 21st birthday, well, won't be the same, huh?

For the first time in my 21 years of life, there is actually some people out there that are planning something for my birthday (other than my parents and relatives of course..). First time, yea, and I just think I should thank them in advance, making this 21st much more different than previous edition, even if it's just a small something from you guys..=)

Being 21, that brings back some memories of the past, some regrets on things that are never done, things that should not have been done. What if I joined the basketball club back in secondary school? What if I'm more responsible back then? What if I never quit being a prefect back in form 1? What if I never did this..and that? Well, we live on them-these regrets, and be stronger and wiser, and maybe that's who I am now. Life goes on, and so must I, instead of pondering over unfinished business in the past, might as well live up to the present and work hard to face an uncertain and challenging future, isn't that the way?. =)

Plenty of dreams going on inside my head, some maybe fulfilled, some may not, falling sideways as new dreams emerge as I move on with life. Maybe I'll get one inside my birthday wish and hopefully it comes true. Not that I really believe such thing but you won't lose by doing that right? But nothing comes free; hard work, determination, etc. must be on of course. Can't just sit around and wait for it to drop from the sky, huh? As the saying goes, 'with great dreams, comes great responsibilities.' Sounds familiar? Okay, I'm crapping too much here. Well, since it's my birthday, I should wish myself with a birthday song. So here goes... 

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to PLJH, 
Happy Hallowe'en to you...

Happy Hallowe'en folks! Enjoy yourself! =D

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Ramblings of PLJH....

Arggghhh.. Wish to be anywhere but here. Feeling so tired and so unprepared for my revision classes. Sigh.... Notes, books, library...oh, can't dec 15 come faster??Hmmm.. on second thought better don't. I'll fail every paper if it does..XD

Pretty bored and tiring nowadays. It's always work, study, work, study.. I actually thought of going for a movie, using the GSC voucher that is gonna expire soon, but it's always-no time, don't feel like it, or feeling lazy to go to the cinema.. And it seems like the mood for japanese language is back. Yea, I'm studying back from where I left it few months back. The next thing to master-katakana character.(One of the three form of writing in japanese) Learning Jap is one of the thing I do when I don't feel like touching my (damn UN-interesting..XD) notes nowadays, apart from watching drama series and musics..

So why am I here now? Well just don't feel like revising after a long day in college. And since I have no idea what to blog about...maybe I'll just crap something on Japanese language. Well, as you know(or maybe you don't) Japanese writing system consists of three types of character-Kanji, hiragana and katakana.  

Kanji are basically chinese characters. Hiragana on the other hand is used for grammatical items such as particles, suffixes and inflectional endings and the native Japanese words not covered by kanji. Katakana is used for non-Chinese foreign names, loan words from the West and most of imitative expressions. (don't understand? never mind.. just forget it.. I know you are not interested...haha) And the one that I know is just the hiragana set.(and a bit of kanji as well, since it's chinese character.)

あ い う え お
a   i   u   e   o
か き く け こ
ka  ki  ku  ke  ko
さ し す せ そ
sa  shi  su  se  so
た ち つ て と
ta  chi  tsu  te  to
な に ぬ ね の
na  ni  nu  ne  no
は ひ ふ へ ほ
ha  hi  fu  he  ho
ま み む め も
ma  mi  mu  me  mo
ら り る れ ろ
ra  ri  ru  re  ro
や ゆ よ
ya  yu  yo
わ を ん
wa  -o  -n/m

That's the basic sound for those hiragana character. There are more additional explanatory things on it though which i don't think I will explain further since I can see from your face that I'm boring you to death. So let's not torture you further. (Can save that for someday.. xp) 268pages for the Japanese textbook and where am I? page 26.. Wonder when I'll finish it.. Haha.. Well, I think I better get going, another long day later, so take care people... 元気でね!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Study Mode : ON

Oh yes, I'm on study mode now. Less time surfing the net, on my laptop, on blogs; more on lecture notes and questions and library. Realized I have more rest time, more time to spend on things other than being in front of my laptop, less tired eyes and headache. Accompanied by musics and movies or anime during my study breaks, I'm really making a very good progress here. And since my days from now on will be filled mostly with studies, books, notes, library visits, etc etc, I'm gonna blog less, unless there are events going on of course, which I think will be quite rare. So expect bigger gaps in between my posts from now on till December 15. (can't wait for that time to come..XD) So long, people. All the best to everyone having their exams out there!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

A Journal on My weekend...

As usual, I slept late again on Saturday morning. It was around 5am in the morning when I finally fell asleep without being able to complete even two pages of my lecture notes. Sigh. Fell asleep on the floor with the lights still on, which turned out to be the reason I was woken up three hours later by my brother. I was a bit annoyed, being disturbed in the middle of my sleep as I had a date with some of my friends at 11am that morning. And so, I moved my lazy ass up, close the light, shifted to bed to continue sleeping and then I suddenly remembered something-Where's my tortoise?

I spent the next 10 minutes searching for it around my room, was worried that I stepped on it, as it's still small in size. Even my brother join in the search, but 2 guys waking up so early in the morning just to search for a tortoise?! Oh, this will really make a good laugh. LOL.. At last found it hiding in the small space behind the cabinet. Phew~ I was actually playing with it before I fell asleep, thinking that since it's so passive, it wouldn't be running around the room, but how wrong I was. I then spent the remaining hours before the meet with friends watching baseball (the Yankees..) and doing some house chores since I'm already wide awake.

At 11 plus, I was at 'The Pastry' (I think this is the name of the shop...) with Charmaine, Angelina and Felicia Hong. Was joined by Sue Juin midway through it. Well, we had a great deal of talks-on our school life, our work, our friends, our studies, etc. Had my lunch there too before leaving at 2pm as Charmaine had to leave for her informal interview. Then headed straight to my mum's office at Selayang Mall. Went there to get my tennis racquet grip done, as I was gonna have a tennis game at 5pm in the evening with Ben, Meng and Adeline.

I was really exhausted after the 3 hours session, as I hadn't been going for any outdoor activity for about a week plus, and what with only three hours of sleep this morning. My whole body ached, but I still ended up going for a movie with them (after forcing someone to come along of course..xp)-Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. It was a really stupid show, but funny it was. A good movie for some laugh to relieve stress. (good thing Adeline came along and watched this show, or else she would have continued her attempt to destroy my car and belongings in order to let go some of her stress..*sigh of relief* XP) Enjoyed it very much.

It was already past midnight when I reached home. Was so damn tired. Whole body aching but I still attempt to try to study but to no avail. Sigh. And it's Sunday again, a sign that Monday is approaching. I went to 1U and meet up with Ben and Joanne Khan in the afternoon. My second time meeting her..(Hi there! =)) Wasn't in my plan initially but it was nice to meet them. Turned out to be another present hunting session for her roommate, who has the same birthday as me! (31st October 1988.. Please remember this, guys..XD)

Went back around 6pm-my car alarm didn't work so had to go to Parkson to get the battery changed or else we wouldn't be able to get back. Well, that sums up my weekend. Planning to enjoy my remaining Sunday with my books before the clock slowly ticks to midnight. I hope that you guys had a good weekend too. Hopefully it'll be a good week ahead of us. Till then, take care people..=)

Friday, October 16, 2009

BAD'09--Climate Change(15/10/2009)

BAD'09-short for Blog Action Day 2009, well, "For those of you who don’t know, Blog Action Day is an annual event held every October 15th where bloggers across the world unite to write about a single issue on a single day. We like to think of it as one big blogfest for good, and our goal is to spark conversation on an issue of importance across the web."-that's what I got from the blogger buzz. Came across it in Sparky's post, and since the topic is a global issue -Climate Change- I thought I would join in the cause as well. Take a look at for more info.

So, climate change-not a foreign issue to any of us i guess, unless you are the kind that shut yourself from the news, from the world. But even then, you guys would have been exposed to it in your education, teachers, friends, etc. A change in the statistical distribution of weather over periods of time that range from decades to millions of years, a change that is caused mainly by us, humans which in turn will affect us in the near future, be it to us or our future generation. A good example will be global warming.

Although other factors such as plate tectonics, volcanism, etc. do play a role in the change, it is the human influence factor which is growing uncontrollable in today's modern world. Fossil fuel combustion, aerosols, cement manufacture, ozone depletion, animal agriculture,deforestation, etc.-sounds familiar to you? Doing any of those at the moment? Guess you do. Billions of cars out there on the road each there, aerosol everywhere around the world, forest fire, logging, air-conditioner (CFC), etc etc etc. And how many person out there actually cares about all this? Thousands? Millions? Surely not yet billions!

Percentage of advancing glaciers in the Alps in the last 80 years

Variations in CO2, temperature and dust from the Vostok ice core over the last 450,000 years

Glaciers melting, rise in CO2, temperature and dust, changes in sea level, and not forgetting the negative effect on flora and fauna-this are all just a small list of the effect from climate change, and all this is happening now. Yes, NOW! And how many of us actually realize it? Actually took the steps to work hard to reduce their Carbon footprints? Actually tried to promote it to the communities? That is not all. The worst is it is actually WORSENING! Day by day as we continue our daily activities, with no care for our environment, our beloved Earth and it's inhabitants is actually suffering!

To solve all this, every single person in this world would have to play their part. You might think your small action is meaningless to the environment, but remember, small it might be, collectively it is BIG enough to play a BIG part to save our Earth. Think for yourself, for Earth and it's inhabitants, and also for your future generations. You wouldn't want to see your children suffering out there, would you? So save Earth before it's too late....

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Sick of All This....

My facebook laggy for dunno-what-reason, brain unable to think, no mood and motivation to study..Arghhhh!!! Really hate this moment. Hate the 'me' that is so lazy. Always slacking, brain jammed-like as though filled with stones, wasted my sleeping time which should have been spent on studying......and where's the motivation that I am looking for??Really in need of a strong motivator to force me start studying seriously. And seriously tireed for sleeping so late every night. Starting to feel the pressure for my studies. Revision classes just few weeks away and my own revision-I seriously doubt it's even 10%.Nah, it should be less than 5%, ten is just too high...

Well, at least there's still someone out there always forcing me to study. But seriously still not enough. Really need to be more disciplined. But just can't stop myself going for facebook and mafia wars, or twitter, or blogs, or msn, or.......and the list goes on and on. Sigh... But at least my unlimited broadband contract is ending, which means I'll be signing up for another package-with quota. Well, at least there's some control here. Perfect timing for it to end, so that I can concentrate more on studies. Seriously hope I'll be in better shape before I reach my 21st birthday. Hopefully things will get better soon. Hopefully the change would have arrived by the time I write my next post....

[P.S. Happy Deepavali and happy holiday to everyone out there.. =)]

Sunday, October 11, 2009

It Was The Right Decision After All...

I was tired, exhausted, sleepy, drowsy, blah blah blah....but at the same time happy and glad...=) Glad that I actually decided to go for the movie with Charmaine and Angeline at Mid Valley. Guess it was the right decision I made. Feels good after that movie. And glad to meet up with the both of them, who I haven't really talk much to since f5 in high school. Seems like you guys doing well currently. Glad to see (and hear) that.. =D

I had an exhausting 6 hours session on Saturday with my f8 lecturer before the meet, which is why I was unsure whether to go or not... Super duper tired and sleepy. Even after taking a cup of coffee in the morning! Okay, it was basically my own fault, slept for only 3 hours plus that night, ended up being really really drowsy in class.(I think I did sleep during the lecture...ooopss XD) So it's no secret that I'm so glad when the class ended. Went straight to board a train to Mid Valley to meet up with the both of them.

We went for the movie 'Surrogates'. Not the best movie around but also not the worst la. Okay la.. After the show, back home-thanks to Charmaine for the ride.. My driver for the night.. XD Well, hope to see you guys around more often. Just give me a message ya.. ;) Here's some pics from the meet--->

Me, Angelina and Charmaine..

Me and Charmaine.. (I look so dark in this pic..haha)

Angeline and me...

Saturday, October 10, 2009

The Silly Me...

1310-Woke up and saw the time in my phone-1330???! Class at 2. WTH! Never mind. It's 20 mins fast... Phew~~~ Quickly out of bed and get ready for class... Before that, searched for my broadband modem. Oh no, where is it? Damn, must be my bro took it without telling me again...

1348-Reached KTM just nice to see the shuttle train roll past! Damn.. Waited for more than 25 minutes for the next one. Read my lecture notes while waiting..

1435-Reached my class. Great, 35 mins late. Totally lost as lecturer doing a past-year exam question. Caught up slowly but ended up doing things my own speed...

1700-Class ended. Decided to went to library to read newspaper. Why? Because no modem=no internet=boring to go back so early. My brain was like,"Of all the days, why must you choose today to take it, huh?"

1725-Waited for train at KL KTM Station. Was irritated to hear about the delay. As usual from them. Waited till around 1800 for the next one.. And packed it was, ended up as sandwiches inside...

1830-Reached home. No broadband..sigh! Reminded myself to ask him why he took it... Took a nap while waiting for him to be back..

1930-Bro back. First thing I said when I see him-"Where's the modem?". In reply, "Modem? I took your modem? Are you dreaming or what? Ha-ha-ha..." Was a bit pissed off with that comment actually. But just woke up, so didn't fight back. Well, maybe mum took it..

1940-I found the modem in my drawer....=.=" Great! Luckily I did not make an ass of myself in front of mum. Silly me.. Blaming bro for something he didn't do.. But then, didn't recall putting it there. Maybe because I was a bit blur at 7 in the morning when shutting down my laptop....

Friday, October 9, 2009

THAT Much Just for A Fish???!

See that fish in the pic on the left-hand side? Ever seen that before? Well, let me tell you what fish is that. Its an Empurau fish, one of the most sought-after freshwater fish, mainly found in most of the upper major rivers such as Rejang in Sarawak. So now, my dinner-I guess you would have guessed I had it right? Well, in fact I did. Right after work, straight went for a feast with my relatives, colleagues, my Uncle Steven (or should I call him Datuk Steven)'s friends and fellow 'Datuk's....(I actually don't really know who are the 'Datuk's) About 7 tables (I think..) full.. Fully sponsored by my uncle of course(I think la..XD) Now, the thing I wanna talk about here is the fish-well, it's nice and tasty.. Although I'm not a fan of fishes, I must admit it's really nice.. But guess what's the price? Wanna know? Well, it is THAT much!! Yes, THAT much! So how much is THAT? I'll tell you later... xp

I had my 2nd taste of alcohol this time.(First experience was gin) As one of my uncle's friend pour it out for me, I decide to take just a cup. Mind you, it's 85% water.. XD It's Martell Cordon Bleu whisky. Heard it's a good whisky-but alcohol, really not for me. Bitter I must say. Maybe once in a while drink like that will be fine. Ended up feeling really hot when I reached home-perspire a lot...

Some unfortunate incident happens tonight. Seems like some ignorant and irresponsible git(s) purposely scratched my mum's and my aunt's car along with another stranger's. Such nothing-better-to-do fools, really feel like giving them a piece of me if I ever know who they are. We suspected it was those residents living atop those shops that did it-reason being we parked at their space maybe. But then it was supposed to be a public parking area, with the yellow box mark. (Curse 'em...) Really hate people who acts boss-like, thinking themselves owning things that in reality are not theirs.

So now back to the fish... How much do you think it is? 3 chances - 200? 300? 1,000? Well, 200 is wrong, 300 is also wrong and 1,000...also wrong.. Continue guessing, folks..xp Take care for now.. Adios!

It is RM5,000+ for that fish alone. Yes! My uncle got it from Sarawak, plus air ticket and taxi fees, it is worth THAT much! Crazy, why don't just donate it to me..I can make good use of it.. XD

[NOTE : Wanna know how much is THAT much? Just highlight the few rows above. And you will see the answer before you.. =)]

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

To Final Fantasy Fans...

Oh yes, I love Final Fantasy! Although I'm not really proud with the fact that I have not finished any version of the FF games except for The Crisis Core in PSP. Nevertheless, I love this game - love their storyline so so so much, and love this trailer too.. XD Oh ya, anyone knows where to find the theme song in there? Kimi ga Iru Kara by Sayuri Sugawara. Been searching hard for it. But still can't find it. Arghhh! Let me know if any of you have the download link ya..;) Enjoy the video..

P.S. I found the English version too.. But I prefer the japanese one.. Sounds more original and real.. XD Check it out below..

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

A Dog That I am Proud Of...

Having read Charmaine's post on her dog, Rocky, I start to think back about this dog that I had for about half a year when I was 17. It's a he, a mixture of Rottweiler and Bullmastiff which I got it from my uncle Arthur few weeks after it was given birth by his dog, a Rott. It was really skinny when it was first taken to my house, a passive dog at that time. Brown fur, quite big size for a puppy (as expected from a breed known to be big dogs), brown+black tail..can't realy think much of him now. Just that I really like him.

So then, having taken him back home, the next problem for us is the name. At that time, most of our relatives were rearing dogs so we had to think of a name which is different from theirs. Such a headache in choosing the name, arghhh! So, guess what's the name? It's Patrick. Yes, you did not read wrongly. It's Patrick! And why that name? 'Cause my parents don't really call me by that name at home, (so it wouldn't be so confusing to know who they're calling..) and besides, it's the name for the red dog which people sometimes call me as. So Patrick he is...

Within a few days time, he was no longer the passive dog anymore. Started to get naughty, chew on this and that, especially SHOES! Oh man, I don't know how many shoes he chewed on, spoiled our house with his sharp teeth, really can't stop his mouth from chewing here and there.. And he was growing fast too. There were times when he had no appetite, so I followed Wei Chean's advice in mixing his dog food with raw eggs-and it worked! Within few months, he's no longer the thin dog anymore but a muscular and fit one, given that I always let him had a run around the playground early in the morning or late at night..(too bad that I do not have any pics of him with me now or I'll publish it here...)

Not really an obedient one, but at least it listens to me. There's this one time when I went out late at night to go to the comic shop bringing my dog for a walk as an excuse.(Mum will kill me if she knows back then..) Upon reaching the shop(about 10 mins walk), I tied him up to one of the metal bars outside before I went in. And this naughty dog actually managed to set himself loose and ran off. Honestly, I was dead worried for the dog and for myself! How am I gonna explain to mum that I lost the dog without revealing that I went to the comic shop?? Search, search and search and it was actually past midnight before I finally gave up and when home with the collar in my hand.

What a relief for me to find him barking at me when I reached home. Seems like he's clever enough to find his way home.. Phew~~~ Was really glad that night. The memories of that night still remain fresh in my head till now. So proud of him but alas, we still parted few months later.. As mum was busy with work; me, my sis and bro with studies, we find it hard to look after him especially when our schedule was so full of tuition classes, school outdoor activities and so on. And as Patrick was growing bigger, there wasn't much space in our porch as my mum always parked her car in and coupled with the problem that our porch wasn't wholly covered by any roof or shelter from the weather, it was really hard to keep him comfortable out there...

So he was taken off by Uncle Anson to guard a factory, I heard. I wasn't around when he was taken off but I heard from my sis that he sounded scared and unhappy. Well, hopefully he's doing well in his new job. I must say that I'm proud to have a dog like you. Although it's just a short moment that we had been together, nonetheless it was a happy one. The memories with you shall remains etched deep within me as one of the pieces that lights up my journey in life..=)

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Happy Mooncake Festival Everyone!

It's the 15th day of the eighth month in the Chinese lunar calendar, and that means Mooncake Festival! All right, it's not really much of a cause for celebration though. I don't light up candles or play those lanterns (tanglung) anymore, something which I think can make a good laugh if I'm seen doing it alone! XD Used to do that when I'm still a kiddo last time. It was...okay la. The best part I remember will be when we light up anything other than the candles-and got scolded. Haha...

So how do I spend my day? Usual boring stuff la. Nothing unusual except that i went to help out my friend with her assignments and I went jogging. Yes, JOGging! I know, I know. I actually don't like jogging. I'm more of a speed runner, so it's a 'torture' to run long distance..(oops..) haha. Not exactly la. But my brain was like 'let's stop this torturing activity!"XD And i was half jogging and walking. Thanks to Adeline la. XD Jog so slow till I was like 'she's not here yet, can rest!' haha.. (too excited already till no energy left right?lol..) Seriously prefer speed running. Did some just now and feels real good now..

And of course, there's the mooncake. Ate a few of them. And wanna thanks everyone for their wishes. Happy mooncake festival to you guys too..=) There's one thing I wanna talk about here though. I got messages telling me to see the moon. I was like 'What's so special about the moon, huh?' I thought you can see full moon every month?? Sound like some people have not seen the moon for a long long time huh?..XD

That more or less sums up my day. Ohya, I was really really obsessed with the song 'Colors'. Really like it. So obsessed with it till I play it for the whole day today! Again! haha..But I guess I better switch channel for a bit, or else I'll get bored of this song soon. Hmmm.. Guess that's all for now, folks. Till then, take care! ^____^

Friday, October 2, 2009

Song of The Moment...

Colors by Tohoshihinki (JaeChun). Ahh.. Really really enjoy listening to this song at the moment. Kept repeating it in my playlist. (I think I've been listening only to this song all the while today!) Nice song, interesting lyric, nice melody, like the style of the song,... In short, really like this Japanese song - maybe except for the fact that I heard it's the soundtrack for 'Hello Kitty' la.(oops..XD) Well, have a look at the song lyric---->

Colors by Toshihinki (JaeChun)

Lyric in English
Right now, somewhere, someone
is in pain, all alone
Passing through a sleepless night
Until the light shines on your heart
Let’s nestle close together, so that we could sleep
Like a melody and harmony in love

For someone’s sake
we are here
Although we can only achieve small things
Even just for 1 second
We still want to stop all the tears in this world
And turn them all into smiles

Keep loving, and keep walking,
We’ve been believing that we will be able to convey these overflowing feelings
Even before we were born, we knew that we would meet
And that we would be searching for our dreams together

You know you're just like them other ten
A faded fight between you and I
I'd rather hope than make you sad and cry
What I just wanna say is
Keep the faith but fate never is moving us
It can't take us, it doesn't make different cases
So turn the light out, interact with a piece of dream
Sound brighter, we all want the same sound
Keep the tears, I told you how I'm your freedom
like a bird going through the sky
What are we, just a Christmas tree in the night?
The moment when we are able to compose the sparkling sound
We will be able to forget all the sorrow
Melody and harmony
You are always by our side
Giving us courage and hope

Thanks to you
Thank you forever
These glittering feelings are your gifts to me
You’ve taught me how to support each other, to watch over each other
And that I’m not lonely

The love that was piled up
is riding on the melody
I want to convey it to you
Always and forever

My music is my life
For you, for you, smile
Because our hearts will link together
My life is wonderful
Forever, forever

Starting from here

Keep loving, and keep walking
We have been believing that we will be able to
convey these overflowing feelings

Thanks to you
Thank you forever
These glittering feelings are your gifts to me

The love that was piled up
is riding on the melody
I want to convey it to you
Always and forever

Your gifts
Always and forever

Right now, somewhere, someone is in pain, all alone
Passing through a sleepless night
Until the light shines on your heart
Let’s nestle close together, so that we could sleep
Like a melody and harmony in love

Translated by: linhkawaii@lj+kpopjjang

Romanized version
ima doko ka de dare ka ga
tsurai kimochi de
hitori kiri
nemurenu yoru wo
sugoshite iru no nara
sono kokoro ni
hikari sasu made
furisou de ireru kara
like a melody and harmony in love

nani ka no tame ni
bokura wa koko de
chiisana koto shika dekinai keredo
ichi byou dake demo sekai juu no namida
tomete egao ni natte kureru no nara

aishi tsuzukeru yo
aruki tsuzukeru yo
afureru omoi ga
todoku to shinjite
umareru mae kara
bokura wa deatte
yume wo sagashite ta
sonna ki ga suru yo

You know you're just like them other ten
A faded fight between you and I
I'd rather hope than make you sad and cry
What I just wanna say is
Keep the faith but fate never is moving us
It can't take us, it doesn't make different cases
So turn the light out, interact with a piece of dream
Sound brighter, we all want the same sound
Keep the tears, I told you how I'm your freedom
like a bird going through the sky
What are we, just a Christmas tree in the night?
kirameku oto ni
tsutsumere ru toki
wasurete irareta
melody and harmony
itsumo soba nii te
boku ni yuuki to kibou wo kureta ne

kimi ni arigatou
zutto arigatou
kagayaku omoi wa
kimi no okuri mono
sasae aeru koto
mitsume aeru koto
hitori janai koto
oshiete kureta yo

kasane au ai wo
melody ni nosete
tsutaete yukitai
itsumo itsumade mo

my music is my life
for you, for your smile
tsuyoi kizune gaaru kara
My life is wonderful
forever, forever

kono basho kara

aishi tsuzukeru yo
aruki tsuzukeru yo
afureru omoi ga
todoku to shinjite

kimi ni arigatou
zutto arigatou
kagayaku omoi wa
kimi no okuri mono

kasane au ai wo
melody ni nosete
tsutaete yukitai
itsumo itsumade mo
kimi no okuri mono
itsumo itsumade mo
ima doko ka de dare ka ga
tsurai kimochi de
hitori kiri
nemurenu yoru wo
sugoshite iru no nara
sono kokoro ni
hikari sasu made
furisou de ireru kara
like a melody and harmony in love

Have you ever....

'have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry,
   have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night
     have you ever try to find the words they don't come out right..."

So have you ever feel that way before? This is just a part of the lyric of the song by Westlife entitled 'Have You Ever'. I am currently a bit obsessed with this song. Though not one of the latest out there, but certainly a meaningful song. Just kinda reflect my feelings and mood at the moment. So how is it like to be deeply in love with someone or something? I guess you know that better than me, don't you?

Love - an emotion or experience related to a sense of strong affection and attachment; an abstract concept where a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction, usually refers to as a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. An edited definition from wikipedia.(okay, that's a complicated one..) A great feeling to have - be it for someone, something, animals, our Mother Nature, etc.. So just imagine a world filled with that! That will be great! But then that's impossible right? As hate do exists along with love..(Is that true? I guess it's hard to eradicate 'hate' from human being huh?..)

All right,! Okay, I'm stuck! And what am I doing here crapping about love when all I wanna say is that I like the lyric of the song??! Such craps... Oh great! Enough crapping.. Back to study.... But I guess love is a great feeling right? (XD..) Ability to love someone plus the feeling of being loved - loving your loved ones, your friends, your pets, your environment, your belongings, etc etc... and not forgetting yourself too! And when you are deeply in love with someone, that someone will meant the whole world to you, don't they? What do you say? All right.. Seriously back to study!

Thursday, October 1, 2009


It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.  

Over the phone, his mother told him, 'Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday..' Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days. 

'Jack, did you hear me?' 

'Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago,' Jack said. 

'Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it,' Mom told him. 

'I loved that old house he lived in,' Jack said. 

'You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life,' she said.

'He's the one who taught me carpentry,' he said. 'I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral,' Jack said. 

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away. 

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time.
Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time. The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

'What's wrong, Jack?' his Mom asked.

'The box is gone,' he said 

'What box?' Mom asked.

'There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell me was 'the thing I value most,' Jack said.

It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it. 

'Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him,' Jack said. 'I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom.' 

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from work one day Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. 'Signature required on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days,' the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the
package. The small box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. 'Mr. Harold Belser' it read.

Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There inside was the gold box and an envelope. 

Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside. 'Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life.' A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch.

Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover.

Inside he found these words engraved:

'Jack, Thanks for your time! -Harold

'The thing he valued most time'

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days.

'Why?' Janet, his assistant asked.

'I need some time to spend with my son,' he said.

'Oh, by the way, Janet, thanks for your time!'

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,' 

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you. 

At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 

A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 

Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 

You mean the world to someone. 

If not for you, someone may not be 

You are special and unique. 

When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better. 

When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it. 

When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world. 

Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 

A lways remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks. 

. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy .

If you have a great friend, take the
time to let them know that they are great. 

To everyone who read this,
'Thanks for your time

 [Thanks to Adeline and Cheng Seng for the mail.. =)]