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Insane

The floor is beyond reach,
the cap visible to the naked eye,
hedge here, hedge there, but how to hedge?
It's growing insane, overflowing soon...

The F-P Line...

To...

To Spain who wins the World Cup,
well done, World Champion, you did well...

To Mr. Paul, the octopus,
you've done well, time to head to the kitchen...

To the Earth I ask,
is 2012 your end?

To the people of the World,
what do you think of our World now?

To August, the month to come,
may it be a month filled with good tidings...

To this World I wonder,
what am I sent here for?

To the unknown future,
am I allowed a glimpse of what is to come?

To the doubts that fills the heart,
will the future shows you an exit door?

To the griefs of the soul,
have I seen the last? Or is there more?

To the love I seek,
To plead a long-life one it be...

And to you who worry much,
I wish I can quench some, if not all of it...

Unrest...

Unrest,
worried,
anxious,
fear of what might happen,
as the day looms,
a month approximately,
what will it be?
As planned? Or against?
Numerous days...
Short it is, but a long wait for the soul...

One...

F7...Hmmm...I think I'll somehow sneak through the examiner's slippy fingers, just like the ball does with Green. Well, I did all my statements, though hell knows why ALL of them didn't balance! No, not even my conso..WTHeck...Never mind, pass will do..=))) And now for P3!! =)))

1...0.0

Two...

Two done, and two left. And there goes my first experience of P papers. Slow starter, and I have to rush at the end. Well, nothing much. Just another paper...

Hmmm... Already spotted few mistakes, and well never mind. At least I try to finish all, though left about +-15 marks I assumed. Okay, maybe a moderate score can be expected, though I'm not buying that, because I just don't know what score to expect, or how well or bad I did... But now I kinda feel I did badly.. =(

Don't feel great, well, post-exam syndrome I guess, neither do I feel disappointed or regret, no, I don't. I just want to get it done with-my last 2 papers and look forward to a new semester. But somehow feels like I'm missing something, a void...I wonder what it is..=( And somehow I can't wait to sit for p3! =)

2...=.0

Three...

Turns out to be a great first day. Well, I know my stuff pretty well, not expecting good score, but a pass, yea, probably. No guarantee of course. Though didn't have a good night sleep, but it was worth the hard work. Plus thanks to the accompany of someone, well, she just makes my day.. =)

3...=.=

Four...

Approximately a day left to my first paper, somehow I'm feeling calm but sick and stressed up! Holy crap! Good or bad? No idea. I just wanna get it over as soon as possible. Sigh... Bless me.. I should continue studying now... >.<

4...>.<

To the World, To him...

Empty, yea, that's it.

Facing this screen, intense in thoughts, yet nothing, nothing seems to come out.

So much to ponder, so much to revise, yet so little it seems...

Thinking of the time slipping through his grasp,

of loved one,

of the unknown future,

of this crying world,

so complex, yet it is just a small train of thoughts that come and go,

simple, naive thoughts as compared to the harsh reality...

After all, just a tiny speckle of life from this bigger world,

what is a small life to the bigger stream of life?

An insignificant dots in a world map?

A dull human amongst the billions of human?

A drop of water among the sea of water?

To the world, probably he's just a nothing,

But to him, the world is probably holding all the things he wants and crave...

Time and Again : The Few Common Problems...

Facing my lecture notes on the table,

going through the lines of words that I have to take in,

I ask myself,

"Why am I reading back the same line over and over again?!"

Looking at the wall opposite me,

staring into space, mind deep in thoughts,

again I ask myself,

"Why can't I concentrate and focus well?!"

Strolling around the web,

trying to relax this cloudy mind,

but then I ask myself,

"Why come the headache? Damn the weather..."

As the clock automatically ticks away,

gulping up the remaining time I have left,

"Buck up, young man.

Remember, even one day can make a whole lot of difference. Use the time well..."

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.......................................................Sigh...........................

3.38am

3.38am-That's the time shown on my desktop. And WTH am I doing here? Nowhere near my bed of course, not even notes. It's facebook, twitter, you-tube, sports, blah blah blah... Damn! But I still don't feel like occupying my time with studies..xD 

Browse through my friend's blog and came across some cool car pics. Look at this...

Lamborghini Reventon and McLaren F1.. Wow.. Cool cars! I love them.. Well,...... One day probably.. One day la, one day.. lol..

Sigh... What a lazy night. Idling around trying to relax after a tiring day. But somehow crappy thoughts keep filling up my head, like some irritating flies buzzing around, though the thoughts themselves are not what I will call irritating. Best to think nothing, have a clear and focus mind to detect the subtle discontinuities, oops.. P3-Mintzberg 'emergent strategy' theory. Crap, too much of studying.. xD

Alright, a topic for discussion-Global warming, increasing earthquake frequencies, major volcanic eruptions, typhoons/hurricanes, blah blah blah... So they say signs of end times huh? Well, it's not like it matters as  the rumours said its 2 more years to come-well, you get what I mean. I know, it's BS, scientifically proven not true or whatever it is that the 'science' said, but the question is 'What IF it is real?'. Maybe not 2 years, but SOON. How soon I don't know, but just think IF it's real, what's your plan? Hmm.. Any contingency plans? 

Move on to philosophies, I recently saw a philosophy on money quoted in a financial magazine-here it goes..

"You can't do without money, but don't let it control you. You need to see its value in the proper place in your life. One of the biggest problems is greed and letting it control your life and your decisions. Because of greed, people go to war and break the law, even people who are rich wouldn't be able to spend all their wealth in their lifetime."

Hmmm.. Very true, human greed-not an uncommon thing nowadays. At the end of the day, money is after all just a human creation, bringing with it no value other than in the world we are in now. Important as it is, just remember that money is not everything. Do not let money control us, do not let it be a reason for conflicts. Well, since money bring so much troubles, why not just give them all to me? I'll take care of the troubles for you. Oops.. xp

And exam stress...You know when you start talking a lot to yourself and when you use a lot of those study terms, you're probably having exam stress, or just too immersed in studying. How bout pimples? Black eyes aka panda eyes, pale and tired faces, exploding heads, headache, 'chronic misbehaviours', amongst others...All right, I'm no expert here. But let's just work hard together people.. =)

OMG, it's 4.19am already! Degree of blurness-exceeding 90%. I'd better tune in. Adios, folks!