The Ending & The Beginning

With the Christmas gone, few days on, there will be a new year to look to, another beginning and another ending. There ends 2009, and comes 2010. And with that also comes my new semester. It's time to concentrate back to my studies-with the professional level papers underway, it's really time to get serious, and hopefully, I do not repeat whatsoever mistake I've done this year.

Christmas had been good this year, maybe not the best but certainly an enjoyable one to me. (Hope you guys did too..) I had a great movie, basketball games with my neighbourhood pals (my first since I injured my ankle) and I even got a Christmas gift-a watch! Okay, it's not really a Christmas gift, just a gift I received during Christmas, or maybe it is, arghh.. whatever it is.

It had been some time since I felt satisfied after watching a show. And Sherlock really did the job. I've been a fan of the book for a while now, and I made no secret that it would be one of the shows that's on my 'must-watch' list. And as usual, I did not put much expectation, learning from the past that doing so will do me no good, what with those recent movies that did badly to really capture my attention. But it turns out great! Well, at least it did for me, if not for you. I'll be waiting for the sequel, hopefully it'll be good-the battle between Sherlock and Professor Moriarty.

And buffet! Oh, I'm really getting tired of these. I've been going for quite a few of those recently, and I certainly think it'll take me some time before I set foot in one again! It's pretty uncomfortable to eat too much just so that it's worth it, or maybe I'm just getting a bit old for that. (haha..)

Well, well, well.. Looking back at 2009, it's been an eventful year after all, even if it had not been so productive in terms of my studies. Some new experience, new friends, new knowledge, some changes- well,not bad after all. So then, for the new year, I wonder...

How will it be like?

How different will it be from the previous ones that had left me?

What new things will I acquire and learn for the coming year?

How much change would take place?

And how different will I be?

Well, time will tell...

Merry X'mas!

It's Chhrrriiiiissssstttmmaaaaaaaaasssss!!!

Merry X'mas folks! 25 December it is! And it's also a public holiday, which means a whole free day for me! No work, no nothing. By the time this post is posted up, I should be somewhere in the cinema in 1U watching Sherlock Holmes. =D

I've been working mostly during my holidays. My last two days of work was mostly in Wangsa Walk at Wangsa Maju where my aunt just opened a new bowling centre. Looks great from my point of view, though she thinks there is still plenty of areas to be improved. I was sent there to help around, though I actually don't really know what I really need to do. This just show how lacking I am in terms of experience. So ended up just looking around most of the time.

On the first of my 2 days there, I followed my aunt's car there, driven by her personal driver of course. Then while on the way back to the car at the main entrance of the shopping complex, I just couldn't help feeling a bit smug, with the people staring at me and my aunt, going into the back seat of the car, you know, like you're an important or rich person. Wow! First time I felt like that actually. XD

Enough about work. So it's Christmas! What are you gonna fill up your day with? Whatever it is, I hope you have a great time out there! Time flies and the day will soon be gone. Let's cherish it while it's here.

Hmmm...

Can't think of anything to post about at the moment.

...

Wait! I think I hear something!

*Prick up my ears*

*Jingle~ Jingle~*

*Hoof Sounds*

O.O

Ho ho ho... MERRY X'MAS!!

Christmas is in The Air!

Christmas decorations started going up in lots of places.

Christmas songs being played more and more frequently on the radio.

Bloggers start posting about Christmas.

And 25th of December is just around the corner.

Somehow I feel excited about this coming Christmas, although Christmas has never been a special day to me, as my family and I do not actually celebrate it. I wonder what am I excited about, and how Christmas will be like this year.

Hmmm.....

While out at Mid Valley today, I saw a number of people, especially westerners getting gifts, hands loaded with bags of goods they just bought. And the Christmas trees standing tall, with plenty of nice decorations, lots of people were taking a picture with them as background. Plus I think I did heard some 'jingle' sound coming from somewhere. Although I didn't exactly see the Santa. 

The mall is just so damn packed today, what with year end sales and school holidays going on and Christmas around the corner that made me kinda regretted going there. Earlier on, I was soaked all over from the rain as I ran to my college, going there to register my next semester courses. And the receptionist asked me, "You just took a bath, is it?". Argh! Why must it rained that time!

So when I arrived at Mid Valley, I wasn't really in the best of my mood. It was hard to look around, and the slow traffic, don't really improve my mood. But still, I'm glad I went. And I couldn't getting the 'Christmas' feeling when I'm there. The decoration, the songs, the noisy atmosphere.. Well, it might as well be Christmas today!

So there, I remembered something from the Enid Blyton's books I used to read-that you need to be a good boy/girl if you want to get a gift from Santa Claus.

Now now, I think I have been a 'very' good child this year, haven't I? So would you kindly give me a very good present for Christmas, Santa? XD

And have you been good yourself?

F-R-E-E-D-O-M

Exam is over! Yeah! that's like 'Finally!'. I'm not gonna say I did well for my papers but I can worry about that when February comes. So now what should I do?

Out for a movie? Not much nice movies around, or should I say none of the movies are what I feel like watching now..

Basketball game! Sadly, my ankle is still kinda swollen. It won't be fun not to play at the maximum.

How about a book? Any nice suggestions? Some nice fiction, romance, adventure, thriller,... will do. Went to MPH to look around but not sure what to get.

Watch anime. Well, that's what I'm doing nowadays. And I'm running out of supply soon.

Work...that's a sure to! Gotta earn some money now that it's holidays.

What else is there......

Hmmm...

Well, just gotta think something out myself. Two weeks of free days ahead of me. And it's gonna be Christmas and then New Year soon! Time flies and 2010 is already approaching. It felt like yesterday I was celebrating the coming of 2009 earlier this year at the Curve. Well, well, well... Time to enjoy! =D

I've Reached!

A man checked into a hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an e-mail to his wife.

However, he accidentally typed a wrong e-mail address, and without realizing his error, he sent the e-mail.

Meanwhile.....Somewhere in Houston , a widow had just returned from her husband's funeral.

The widow decided to check her e-mail, expecting condolence messages from relatives and friends.

After reading the first message, she fainted. The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:

To: My Loving Wife
Subject: I've reached
Date: 16 Mar 2008
I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here, and we are allowed to send e-mails to loved ones.
I've just reached and have been checked in.
I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow.
Looking forward to seeing you TOMORROW!

Happy 21st, Kime!

Happy 21st birthday, Kin Meng!!

Are you reading this? Maybe not! Who cares, I'm gonna see you at your party tonight anyway. Hope it will be a great 21st for you! =)

Ouch! That Really Hurts!

He shot it. A 3 pointer.But No-it didn't go in.

Then I jumped, trying to get the rebound but the opposite team member got it first.

I landed. Took a step forward with my right foot. And then..

Ouch!!!

That really hurts! And seconds later, I was on the floor, clutching my ankle.

Time-out!

And pain it is! It has never hurt like that before. Most of the time I got away with a few seconds of pain and numbness, and then it'll be okay. But not this time. It took me minutes to finally be able to run around a bit, using my left leg more than my right, and barely able to jump.

My right ankle is now swollen-displaying a big lump.And a really bad one it is. I could barely walk properly now. Limping more like most of the time. Shifting more burden to my left leg.

Just hope it will get better soon. Wouldn't want to get stuck at home with a bad ankle for long. I need more time for sports...

Frustration...

What a frustrating day it is! Seriously think I'm gonna fail my F9 paper. Damn! Well, I guess I only had myself to blame. Last minute studies-which is fast becoming a norm for me, lazy to do questions, and I guess I put too much effort in my audit paper when actually it's this paper I should be worrying. Sigh.. Now, I'm facing the prospect of re-sitting for this paper, a high probability in fact, if not definite.

Really frustrated as nothing registers in my head as I face the question paper. What with the traffic jam, and the stomach pain before the exam did not help either. All thanks to myself taking too much bananas in a single day, which is really driving me banana now!

I'm frustrated with the lack of change in my habit! If only I prepare myself earlier, well, that's a really BIG if!

Frustrated with my lack of determination..

Lack of self-discipline..

Lack of control..

And the list goes on.....

This really can't goes on to be like this. No, it must not! But how the heck do I start it! And any best way to maintain it once the momentum gets going? Oh man, this is really frustrating! How I wish I'm stronger...

It's My War!

The war cry sounds, the battlefield all set for the bloodiest war of the year, though still incomplete, as it awaits for the 'heroes' to step on it, and the Outcome-shall be known in approximately 2 months time.

It's officially my war-after about 5 months of don't-know-what-I-did, the dreaded moment is finally here.

Countdown-1 day left!

And then to UCSI I go, for 3 days, 3 hours and 15 minutes each, battling with myself, trying to suck out whatever there is in my brain and imprint them on the important documents that they call 'answers booklets'.

Looks simple, sounds simple, but yet a quest that I wonder what will become of me by the end of the 3 days.

"I Will Survive!". "I Will Win The War!!!".

"I definitely WILL!", I told myself. A little help from the Lady Luck will be sincerely welcomed..

Hmmm...

So before I proceed to the all important war, I thank those who wishes me..

And to all my brothers and sisters out there, may luck be on your side too! All the best in your own war!

So what are they waiting for? Bring on the war NOW!!!

One Week..

It's December the 1st! Meaning that my exams is next week. Holy shit! Time pass so fast, and my revision is anything BUT done! Sigh.... I'm dreading about the day when my results comes out. This really doesn't look good. No, it is really really BAD! Arghhhhh... It has been a very bad semester for my studies. I barely had anything on my head now-anything about f7,8 and 9 to be exact! Just can't feel that my brain had absorbed anything that I've been reading in the past 5 months. Sigh.. Suddenly feels that the target that I've set myself earlier in the semester is really IMpossible! Well, time to get off. Back to more notes~~

It's Twilight...

About three things I was absolutely positive.

First, Edward was a vampire.

Second, there was a part of him--and I didn't know how dominant that part might be--that thirsted for my blood.

And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him

-Isabella Swan

I finish the book on Friday, by night probably-lost track of time. I'm struggling a lot with my revision, but still manage to get time to read the book. It was good, so much better than the movie I think. It fills the gap that the movies left-those unexplained questions that I had after watching the movie. Although some part of the story is just about exactly like how the movie shows it. And that's just one of the reasons I don't like to read a book after I watched the movie. Nonetheless, I still enjoyed it very very much. And the characters are easy to imagine in my mind, thanks to the movie of course-which is good, as my english aren't really perfect, especially on words that describe things-which I suck big time. No dictionary can help me on those.

My favourite character? It's Edward of course. I feel like seeing myself in him, some part of him, yea. The way he thinks, the way he keep out from others,... But he surely have one damn great ability, being able to read minds. But it must be damn boring to be able to do it all the time for a hundred plus years, so it must be a great thing for him to meet Bella.

The vampire family-great! I wouldn't mind joining them if they ever exist, that's IF! Although I'm not in favour of an immortal life. 300+yrs for Carlisle! I wonder how he survived that. Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, Alice and Edward-that makes up the Cullens. I really admire Carlisle-his hardship and loneliness during his early days, the personality, his...in short, his humanity more than his 'vampire-ness' (if there's such word). He's just great-so much more 'human' than others.

Right now, I just wish I have more time, more time for my books. I'm currently at Chapter 5 of New Moon. Can't wait to continue. And I'm seriously not feeling good at the moment. I have no idea how I'm feeling now-maybe a mixed of every feeling that exist in this world?! I guess I just need some peaceful time alone I guess, with the exams out of my mind. But no, seriously can't afford to do that-gotta just survived through this and hopefully come out good. Off for now!

"It's twilight," Edward murmured, looking at the western horizon, obscured as it was with clouds. His voice was thoughtful, as if his mind were somewhere far away. I stared at him as he gazed unseeingly out the windshield.

I was still staring when his eyes suddenly shifted back to mine.

"It's the safest time of day for us," he said, answering the unspoken question in my eyes. "The easiest time, but also the saddest, in a way...the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" He smiled wistfully.

New Moon..

Went to 1U this morning just for this show-Twilight Saga: New Moon. Good show, well, that's basically what I always commented on most of the show that I've watched, ain't it? So I think I'm gonna leave the review to those who are better at it, i.e the 'Pro'(s)..XD Furthermore I haven't read the book yet, so not much comment to put on. Just think that it could be better. But one thing that I really like is the werewolves. Looks real-huge, scary, fast, muscular, hot-tempered..

And I got myself the whole set of the twilight saga books! Yea, cost me a lot (wallet bleeding terribly now..) but I think it'll be worth it since I heard it was good. I actually wanted to get it before this but everytime I saw the price, well, I guess you know what's on my mind after that. But then after I saw the first movie, I decided to get it, regardless of the price. So, gonna spend my free time on those books now. Can't wait to start! =D

Officially Missing You~~

Finally revision for F9 is over. Time for a bit of rest after a really exhausting period before ACCA's next torturing session of F7, rounded up by the killing period from Dec 9 to 15..XD Time for some rest but certainly not too long, so as not to end the momentum that is currently going strong at the moment. Well, took some time off and went for a gathering session with Ben, Adeline, Chengseng, Randy, Man Teing, Wei Chean and some new faces-Brian and Wei Chean's mates-just remember Sandy, Li-e?or something like that. Sorry about that..XD and a few more people that I don't remember their name well. Good one, what with chatting around seeing friends with the screen showing Tottenham vs Wigan live. 9-1! WTH.. It was 6-1 when I left. Wonderful performance.. Well, just a nice break i need after a tired week..

Well, actual purpose of blogging here is to share a video of a pair of twins singing. Nice song, nice voice, wonderful singing and not to forget, pretty singer. I hope you enjoy it as well.. =)

"Officially Missing You"

Hmm...
Ooh...ooh...

All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go
'Cause this pain I feel, it won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I've fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
That I-I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...

It's official
Hoo, you know that I'm missin' you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I'm officially missin' you

The Worst Night Ever~~

I woke up it was 7
I went to class till it's evening
Just to make sure I would pass my exam
I think I've got alot of time
But time is running fast
Watch another day slipping past
When you're spending every hour on your books
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
Now life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm suffering and the world is having more fun than me
Tonight...

And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl to my desk staring at these notes again
I'll try not to think about a life, where there's no exams
A life where I have no worry for these
But I know this is never gonna take place 
So there it goes

I'm just a kid
Now life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm suffering and the world is having more fun than me

What the freak is wrong with my brain
Don't fit in with anything
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored & I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid

I'm just a kid
Now life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone suffering and the world is
Nobody wants to suffer in this world

I'm just a kid
Now life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone suffering and the world is
Nobody wants to suffer in this world
Nobody cares cuz I'm suffering and the world is having more fun than me tonight

I'm suffering here all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cuz I'm just a kid tonight

[Edited from I'm Just A Kid by Simple Plan.. Badly written, but hope you enjoyed it..]

ABC of Positive Living

2012..

I finally watched 2012! It was, well, just like everyone said-great! You should know what I mean, as I think you would have watched it. The seats for the show were fully booked, even till the evening show! But luckily I was watching alone, so I manage to get a single seat right at the middle of the hall-just the perfect place! The show, is just like what everyone said. Really nice but I must agree with my brother that the ending is kinda weird. I mean, shouldn't Judgment Day or Apocalypse or End of the World or whatever else names it has be, well, really the end of the world? Like everyone dead, Earth gone, the sun just *bang* and that's it. Well, not gonna complain, it's a nice show. But Man, I can do with all the luck that main character is having. To be able to survive through so many near-death situation, SO MANY! Wow. Just wow. I'm just speechless. Wonder how long I can survive if I'm in his place. Like 1 second? Maybe not so bad. How bout few minutes?lol..

So there, really worth it waking up that early just for the show. I barely sleep yesterday. Just a few hours and up I go. Hmmm.. Well well, going back to the show, imagine if 2012 is really, well, hope not, the end of the world, the Judgment Day, what will you do? Go out all day and enjoy yourself to the maximum before the end? Party whole night? Withdraw all your savings and spend, spend and spend? Or you're gonna repent from all your sins? Give it a good thought, won't ya? By the way, I suddenly thought of this-that if you choose to spend all your savings, party, drop out of work and so on just because the end is near, and then suddenly the end just never come, just like the show. Just imagine how you'll feel. That's gonna be a freaking shitty hell situation!!

Really satisfied. =D And I saw the trailer for Prince of Persia. Oh yes, that's one show that's going into my must-watch list! Definitely! have a look at the trailer below. Well, a satisfactory Sunday! How's yours? All right, for now, back to my studies...

Rain, rain and rain!!

Damn the weather! It's been raining this few days. Such a nice time to sleep and yet I can't!!! Got to revise, revise and revise! I can fall asleep by just lying down on my bed or the sofa and then there goes my day. Sigh... And it's been raining the whole day today! *sleepy* And everyone seems to have finished their exam by now! Damn! Why can't my exam ends as the same time as theirs?!!

2012! Seems like a good movie after reading some positive rating and review of it in facebook and blogs. But seriously, why must this kind of good movies comes out at the wrong time??? I wanna watch it! Really regretted not following my family out just now for that show. Wondering whether I should steal some time off from revision and go for it. Hmmm.. Maybe I should.. Anyone out there free? XD (Study la! Watch what watch! you've been slacking so much these days, still got time for movie!)

Another boring week. Another boring day to come. Weekends from now on will be occupied with at least 6 hours of revision class! *Slowly dying* Sigh... Feel like skipping work.. Maybe I will.. Hmmm... Well, time to get back to my books.. Enjoy your weekend!

[P.S. Suddenly my sis told me I have to fetch her to Jusco tomorrow, so maybe I will get to watch it!hehe...]

Quotes..

I love quotes. To me, they are inspiring and motivating, albeit a short term one. I still remember last time when I got my school diary back in high school, I used to look through the diary to read all the quotes that are in it. (Well, that is basically the best use the diary provides, other then a few scribbles, notes with few pages torn out as I don't write in diaries. XD) Maybe not everyone think quotes are interesting, just like the other day when my lecturer went through with us some quotes, and my friend beside me said "What for la?". But just why it isn't?

This are advices and saying from famous people, people like Aristotle, Confucius, Sir Winston Churchill and so many more; said or written by people who had gone through different kinds of journey in their life, by people with lots of experience, experience that even some (or should I say most) of us might not have gone through before. Reading them kind of raise my morale, spur me on with what I'm doing, telling me to work harder for my goals, that what I'm doing now is actually just something small, as compared to those that have contribute greater, suffer greater in order to reach the success that they dream of. Just made me think that the things I'm doing now are not even anywhere near them, make me think about what I want for life, my goals and so on.

But then raising my morale is not enough, it's all about actions, ain't it? Sigh.. Pretty stressed up here, what with studies and work, plus I'm not really feeling quite well right now. Considering of taking an earlier study break. Well, let's see how things go in a day or two. If only I didn't procrastinate so much! Must admit I shouldn't have left my notes untouched for a long time, as it's always hard to start my engine especially after enjoying too much. Well, gonna sign off for now. Here's some quotes for you people! And hope you guys doing fine there..=D

It is never too late to be what you might have been.-George Eliot

If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavour to live his life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.-Henry David Thoreau

Someone who has a "why" can live with any "what" and with any "how". Learn to harness the power, energy and wisdom of adversity.-Dr.Viktor Frank

People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are they who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them.-George Bernard Shaw

PERSEVERANCE
PRESS ON. Nothing can take the place of perseverance.
TALENT will not.
           Nothing is more common than unsuccessful man with talent.
GENIUS will not.
           Unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.
EDUCATION will not.
           The world is full of educated derelicts.
PERSISTANCE and DETERMINATION alone are OMNIPOTENT.

The slogan "PRESS ON" has solved, always will solve, the problems of the Human race.-President Calvin Coolidge

Just Feel Like Blogging Now..

退屈な！Bored. Still in office here, enjoying the nice internet connection here, and feeling relieved it's finally Wednesday. That means a rest day tomorrow for me-no work, no class-before revision classes starts on Friday. Phew~~ A free day for me to study. Might get myself to some nice places to study perhaps. Let's see whether I can get my lazy ass to move tomorrow.. XD

So any nice movies around? Well, I just watched Inglorious Bastards on Sunday with Ben and Adeline. Well, the movie, just like the name- full of bastards?! Not up to my expectation at all, making me regret not watching Law Abiding Citizen recommended by someone lining up behind us. Just another stupid show, but kinda funny though. Too bad I'm not interested in this kind of show at the moment, especially as Cloudy blah blah~ movie is the last movie I watched before this.

Been working for the past two days, three if include today. Why work so much when I could have study? Cause I wanna save money for some things. So no choice but to work. And the wound in my ankles still haven't healed, but I'm already wishing for another round of skating. Enjoyed the feeling when gliding (maybe not that smooth) on the ice. Maybe after my exam perhaps, 2nd round to begin..=D

Well, hopefully tomorrow will be one fine day for me, and also to you guys! Before I forgot, a big thanks once again for the wishes, celebrations, cakes, messages, present, etc etc for my birthday! Really enjoyed my 21st, thanks to you people. ^________^  It's Arsenal vs AZ Alkmaar and Yankees vs Phillies tomorrow. So go Gunners! And go Yankees to the World Series crown! D.Jeter, A-Rod, J-Damon, M.Texeira,...-Run feast please; and Pettitte-Strike them all out! =D

VS

今天离婚，你得抱我出门 ...

　　 妻说，是你将我抱进家门的，要离婚了，你再将我抱出这个家门。 
　　
　　与妻结婚的时候，我是将她抱过来的。那时我们住的是那种一家一户的平房，婚车在门前停下来的时候，一伙朋友撺纵着我，将她从车上抱下来，于是，在一片叫好声中，我抱起了她一直走到典礼的地方。那时的妻是丰盈而成熟的娇羞女孩，我是健壮快乐的新婚男人。 

     这是十年前的一幕。 
　　 
       以 后的日子就像是流水一样过去，要孩子，下海，经商，婚姻中的熟视无睹渐渐出现在我们之间。钱一点点地往上涨，但感情却一点点地平下去，妻在一家行政机构做 公务员，每天我们同时上班，也几乎同时下班，孩子在寄宿学校上学。在别人看来，生活似乎是无懈可击的幸福。但越是这种平静的幸福，便越容易有突然变化的机 率。 
　　
　　 我有了她。当生活像水一样乏味而又无处不在，哪怕一种再简单的饮料，也会让人觉得是一种真正的享受。她就是露儿。 
　　
　　 天气很好，我站在宽大的露台上，露儿伸了双臂，将我从后面紧紧抱住。我的心再一次被她感情包围，几乎让我无法呼吸。这是我为露儿买的房子。 
　　
　　 露儿对我说，像你这样的男人，是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。我忽然想起了妻，刚刚结婚的时候，她似乎说过一句，像你这样的男人，一旦成功之后，是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。想起妻的聪明，心里微微地打上了一个结，我清楚地意识到，自己对不起她。但却欲罢不能。 
 
　　     我推开露儿的手，说你自己看着买些家具吧，公司今天还有事。露儿分明地不高兴起来，毕竟，今天说好了要带她去买家具的。关于离婚的那个可能，已经在我的心里愈来愈大起来，原本觉得是不太可能的事情，竟然渐渐地能在心里想像成可能。 
　　
　　 只 是，我不知道如何对妻子开口，因为我知道，开口了之后必然要伤害她的。妻没有对不起我的地方，她依旧忙忙碌碌地在厨房里准备晚上的饭菜，我依旧打开电视， 坐在那里，看新闻，饭菜很快上桌，吃饭，然后两个人在一起看电视，或是一个人坐在电脑前发会儿呆。想像露儿的身体，成了我自娱的方式。试着对妻说，如果我 们离婚，你说会怎样？妻白了我一眼，没有说话，似乎这种生活离她很远。我无法想象，一旦我说出口时，妻的表现和想法。 
　　 
     妻去公司找我时，露儿刚从我办公室里出来。公司里的人的眼光是藏不住事情的，在几乎所有人都以同情的目光和那种掩饰的语言说话的时候，妻终于感觉出了什么。她依旧对着我的所有下属以自己的身份微笑着，但我却在她来不及躲闪的一瞬间，从她的眼神中读出了一种伤害。 
　　
　　 露 儿再次对我说，离婚吧何宁，我们在一起。我点头，心里已经将这个念头扩到非说不可的地步了。妻端上最后一盘菜时，我按住了她的手。说我有件事要告诉你。妻 坐下来，静静地吃着饭，我想起了她眼神中的那种伤害，此刻分明地再一次显出来。突然间觉得自己有些不忍，但事到如今，却只能说下去。咱们离婚吧，我平静地 说着不平静的事。妻没有表现出那种很特别的情绪，淡淡地问我为什么。我笑，说：不，我不是开玩笑，是真的离婚。妻的态度骤然变化起来，她恨恨地摔了筷子， 对我大声说，你不是人！ 
　　
　　 夜里，我们谁也没理谁，妻在小声地哭，我知道她是想知道为什么。但我却给不了她答案，因为我已经在露儿给我的感觉里无法自拔。我起草了协议给妻看，里面写明了将房子，车子，还有公司的30股权分给她。写这些东西时，心里是一直怀了对妻的歉疚的，妻愤愤地接过，撕成碎片儿，不再理我。我感觉自己的心竟然隐隐地有些疼起来，毕竟是一起生活了十年的爱人，所有的温柔都将在未来化去，就这样的慢慢的过去，到了第二天． 
　　
　　 陪 客户喝酒，半醉的我回到家中时，妻正伏在那里写着什么。我躺在床上睡去，醒来的时候，发现妻依旧坐在那里。我翻个身，再沉沉地睡去。终于闹到了非离不可的 地步，妻却对我声明，她什么也不要我的，只是在离婚之前，要我答应她一个条件。妻的条件简单，便是再给她一个月的时间，因为再过一个月，孩子就过完暑假 了，她不想让孩子看到父母分开的场面，而且，在这一个月里还要像以前那样生活。 
　　
　 　我接过妻写的协议，她问我，何宁，你还记得我是怎么嫁过来的吗？蓦地，关于新婚的那些记忆涌上来，我点头，说记得。妻说，是你将我抱进来的，但是我还有 个条件，就是要离婚了，你再将我抱出这个家门吧。这一来一去，都是你做主好了，只是，我要求这一个月，每天上班，你都要将我抱出去，从卧室，到大门。 
　　
　　 我笑，说：好。我想妻是在以这种形式来告别自己的婚姻，或是还有对过去眷恋的缘故。我将妻的要求告诉了露儿，露儿笑得有些轻佻，说再怎么还是离婚，搞这么多花样做什么。她似乎对妻很不屑，这或多或少让我心里不太舒服。 
　　
　　 一个月为限，第一天，我们的动作都很呆板。因为一旦说明之后，我们已经有很久没有这么亲密接触过了，甚至连例行的每周两次的****时 间也取消了，每天都像路人一样。儿子从身后拍着小手说，爸爸搂妈妈了，爸爸搂妈妈了，叫得我有些心酸。从卧室经客厅，出房门，到大门，十几米的路程，妻在 我的怀抱里，轻轻地闭着眼睛，对我说，我们就从今天开始吧，别让孩子知道。我点头，刚刚落下去的心酸再一次地浮上来。我将妻放在大门外，她去等公交，我去 开车上班。 
　　
　　 第二天，我和妻的动作都随意了许多，她轻巧地靠在我的身上，我嗅到她清新的衣香，妻确实是老了，我已有多少日子没有这么近的看过她了，光润的皮肤上，有了细细的皱纹。我怎么没发现过妻有皱纹了呢，还是自己已是多久没有注意到自己这个熟悉到骨头里的女人了呢。 
　　
　　 第三天，妻附在我的耳边对我说，院子里的花池拆了，要小心些，别跌倒了。
　　
　　 第四天，在卧室里抱起妻的时候，我有种错觉，我们依旧是十分亲密的爱人，她依旧是我的宝贝，我正在用心去抱她，而所有关于露儿的想像，都变得若有若无起来。 
　　
　　 第五天，六天，妻每次都会在我耳边说一些小细节，衣服熨好了挂在哪里，做饭时要小心不要让油溅着，我点着头，心里的那种错觉也越来越强烈起来。 
　　
　　 我没有告诉露儿这一切。感觉到自己越来越不吃力了，似乎是锻炼的结果，我对妻说，现在抱你，不怎么吃力了。 
　　
　　 妻 在挑拣衣服，我在一边等着抱她出门。妻试了几件，都不太合适，自己叹了口气，坐在那里，说衣服都长肥了。我笑，但却只笑了一半，我蓦然间想起自己越来越不 吃力了，不是我有力了，而是妻瘦了，因为她将所有的心事压在心里。那一瞬间，心里紧紧地疼起来，我伸出手去，试图去抚妻的额角。 
　　
　　 儿 子进来了，爸爸，该抱妈妈出门了。他催促着我们，似乎这么些天来，看我抱妻出门，已经成了他的一个节目。妻拉过儿子，紧紧地抱住，我转过了脸不去看，怕自 己将所有的不忍转成一个后悔的理由。从卧室出发，然后经客厅，屋门，走道，我抱着妻，她的手轻巧而自然地揽在我的脖子上。我紧紧地拥着她的身体，感觉像是 回到了那个新婚的日子，但妻越来越轻的身体，却常常让我忍不住想落泪。 
　　
　　 最后一天，我抱起妻的时候，怔在那里不走。儿子上学去了，妻也怔怔地看着我说，其实，真想让你这样抱到老的。我紧紧地抱了妻，对她说，其实，我们都没有意识到，生活中就是少了这种抱你出门的亲密。 
　　
　　 停 下车子的时候，我来不及锁上车门，我怕时间的延缓会再次打消我的念头。我敲开门，露儿一脸的惺松。我对她说，对不起露儿，我不离婚了。真的不离了。露儿不 相信一般看着我，伸出手来，摸着我的头，说你没发烧呀。我打开露儿的手，看着她，对她说，对不起露儿，我只有对你说对不起，我不离婚了，或许我和她以前， 只是因为生活的平淡教会了我们熟视无睹，而并不是没有感情,我今天才明白。我将她抱进了家门，她给我生儿育女，就要将她抱到老，所以，只有对你说对不起。 
　　
　　 露儿似乎才明白过来，愤怒地扇了我一耳光，关了门，大哭起来。我下楼，开车去公司。路过那家上班时必经的花店的时候，我给妻子订了一束她最喜欢的情人草，礼品店的小姐拿来卡片让我写祝语，我微笑着在上面写上：我要每天抱你出家门，一直到老。 

    那天晚上，我回到家时，我面带笑容，手拿着花，我跑上楼梯，却发现我的妻子在床上-死了.......我哭了，哭得失控了，我哭着抱起妻子最后一次从房间走到大厅，我望着我唯一的儿子，他的眼泪在眼中滚动，他们使我更加地哭泣。我失去了我的爱，我的妻子和一个充满爱心和关怀的母亲，现在我也没有办法把时钟向后调了。现在我只能详细地看看她一动不动的身体，但我知道它只是一阵子，直到她走完她最后的旅程。 

    我抱着我的儿子，哭了一次又一次，一边想着所有事情，她还活着的时候，我为她做的事不多.........我把花轻轻地放在她的手里，我的泪水都滴在花多上了，她已经一去不复返了，我的眼泪是不会把她接回来的。 

    什么东西是你生活中真正的小细节，这不是豪宅，汽车，属性，在银行存款，等等..这些东西创造一个幸福的的环境，，但不能给予自己的幸福。因此，找一些时间做你配偶的朋友，多为对方建立亲密关系的一些小事情..愿你有真正的幸福的婚姻！

 　　男的都应该用心看看，每个男人到你成功时，也许都会有这种经历，学学吧，不要让自己老时后悔了,伤害最大的是孩子，如果成功后不要妻子，还不如不要成功，一家过苦日子也许也是幸福。 

[Don't know know to read? Just translate it with the google translator toolbar at the side. Not totally accurate but understandable.. I also used it.. XD By the way, thanks to Boey for the mail..=)]

Love My 21st!!! =DDDDDDDD

I love my 21st birthday!! Love it so so much. Thanks for all the wishes, celebrations, treats, presents, efforts, time and everything else. I had my present from Mum. I had Sum and Adeline staying over on my birthday eve after a supper of dimsum at Menjalara. I had my first ice skating experience at Sunway Piramid-luckily the photographer was busy trying to walk on the ice to take my awkward pose when trying to balance myself and when I fell..XD A great dinner at La Casa, Desa Parkcity, birthday cake and present from Ben, Sum, Meng, Lee, Wei Chean, Bernard, Adeline, Dreamie, Cherish and Chengseng & Weibing(not present for the dinner). Another cake from family. A call all the way from Australia from Ms Jarl Li, thanks so much. (but don't forget the present.. XP) A big amount of wishes in facebook and also sms from friends-THANK YOU GUYS SO SO SO MUCH!!! =DDDDDDDDDDDDD

It was really great, yeah it is! Except for the time when we got lost thanks to those confusing signboards, where I ended up going south instead of north to kl from sunway, causing to turn 1 big round... It's the best birthday celebration I ever had. Really indescribable, just love it! =DDDDDDDD Have a look at some of those pics!

 Us at La Casa..

 

 Sum, Legend and me..

Another one..

 

 Legend ss~ing with Chean

SS Queens with DSLR!!?

 

Cake time...

 

 Wishing time~~

 

 Blow 'em off~~

 

 Cutting time..

 

 Walk at the lake_1

 

 Walk at the lake_2

 

 Like the wrapper! =DD

 

 Presents! Shirt + cap from friends, ring from mum.. =DD

 

 How do I look? XD

 

Love it! =DDDDDDDD

Thank you guys so so so much!! ほんとに ありがとございます!! Really had a great day. Thanks for going through the trouble-Lee(fly back from Sing), Sum(back from Kelantan), Adeline, Ben, Chean, Cherish, Bernard, Meng(having exams around the corner), Dreamie (busy queen..thanks for wrapping it so nicely!) and Jarl Li(call to wish from Aus). Thanks for making my 21st a memorable one! And all the best and work hard to all of you!! ^__________^

21 today..

It's 31st of October, it's Hallowe'en, and yes, it's my birthday! My 21st birthday! So how do I feel about being 21? Many people say that this is the age where you are officially off-age. In other words, I'm no longer a teenager but a man? Hmmm.. Funny but I actually don't feel like I'm any wiser than I am before this, don't feel any taller, fatter, more mature, or just anything that's different. I'm still the same jerk that I was before this, if not worse. It's just another ordinary day like any other day, maybe just plus a bit of celebration. A day that will be gone in moments that feels like just seconds away.

Born in the year of 1988, and after much scolding, nagging, shouting, talking-from parents; influences from relatives, friends, school teachers, and everyone else that I can't think of at the moment (how bout you? =)), this is the PLJH that you know now-a lazy, sporty, quiet, likes to procrastinate,...and whatever else you can add on. Well, birthdays have always been a normal thing to me, in the sense that it is not really a great cause for celebration for me. The last birthday I celebrated was back when I was 17, that's four years ago, but I guess 21st birthday, well, won't be the same, huh?

For the first time in my 21 years of life, there is actually some people out there that are planning something for my birthday (other than my parents and relatives of course..). First time, yea, and I just think I should thank them in advance, making this 21st much more different than previous edition, even if it's just a small something from you guys..=)

Being 21, that brings back some memories of the past, some regrets on things that are never done, things that should not have been done. What if I joined the basketball club back in secondary school? What if I'm more responsible back then? What if I never quit being a prefect back in form 1? What if I never did this..and that? Well, we live on them-these regrets, and be stronger and wiser, and maybe that's who I am now. Life goes on, and so must I, instead of pondering over unfinished business in the past, might as well live up to the present and work hard to face an uncertain and challenging future, isn't that the way?. =)

Plenty of dreams going on inside my head, some maybe fulfilled, some may not, falling sideways as new dreams emerge as I move on with life. Maybe I'll get one inside my birthday wish and hopefully it comes true. Not that I really believe such thing but you won't lose by doing that right? But nothing comes free; hard work, determination, etc. must be on of course. Can't just sit around and wait for it to drop from the sky, huh? As the saying goes, 'with great dreams, comes great responsibilities.' Sounds familiar? Okay, I'm crapping too much here. Well, since it's my birthday, I should wish myself with a birthday song. So here goes... 

Happy birthday to me,

Happy birthday to me,

Happy birthday to PLJH, 

Happy Hallowe'en to you...

Happy Hallowe'en folks! Enjoy yourself! =D